but I realized that I may as well share it here just for those interested. Whether I'll start writing here again remains to be seen (I'm not going to force myself to write something I'm not currently interested in), but I've finally started taking a hammer to that wall that keeps me from working on creative pursuits in my life.
Jul
20th
2015
My Mental State · 3:57am Jul 20th, 2015
Um, I haven't felt much like writing lately.
Been sort of....thinking about other things a lot. Which is dangerous for my emotional state.
My interests shifted and I'm really into Disorders now.
I mean Mental and Neurological Disorders.
I actually have 3 Neurological Disorders.
Bipolar, Asperger's Syndrome, and Tourette's Syndrome.
What about you guys? You got any?
I'm uh...a bit messed up right now. In the head.
I don't know when I'll write again. But I will sometime, don't worry!
I'm currently feeling really hot and delirious. It's also almost midnight, I've been sleep deprived for months, and I took a meletonin.
Oh yeah, and there's the most convoluted divorce going on between my parents right now and has been for a long time.
So there's that.
Woah. That's some heavy stuff right there. If you ever need a friend, you know where to find me.
Be well. Try to get some rest.
3253241 I don't know what else to say besides some variation on this.
Same here, whenever you may need to talk, I'll listen.
Sedetophobia and insomnia, the kind diagnosed by doctors and put on medication for. It gets really bad when I run out of meds and it affects my writing. It helps to find something to focus on, and let it distract you from other things. Hope you can get some good rest. Stay strong!
3253241 thanks, yeah :)
3253296 I did, but my Bipolar....sleep is always so difficult for me.
thank you^^
3253460 thanks
3253462 Thank you ^_^
I have bad sleeping issues as well, though I think it comes from my Bipolar Disorder.
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It's entirely possible. My insomnia is more difficult. I already can't fall asleep, and on top of that I have to have music playing, else I have a panic attack. The meds lessen it, but don't get rid of it.
3258635 Well....I don't get a panic attack, but I can't stop my racing thoughts and they inevitably go towards upsetting thing....
But jeez, that sounds terrible for you!
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My racing thoughts often lead toward bits and pieces of story material to write, so it isn't all bad. I function on an average of 3-4 hours of sleep per 24 hours. I think my longest was 52 hours without sleep. Of course, I don't know if I have it worse, or my brother. He's a mute with clinical Sonophobia. It gets interesting 'cause he has the exact opposite condition I do, minus the insomnia. Family reunions and meetings get rather awkward. I have luckily managed to not go down real dark places, but it's sometimes rather iffy. I do know, though, that having an outlet, such as writing, is VERY important to have when dealing with shit. You're better with than without it.
3258729 um....yeah.
Well, I hope things get better for both of you.
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Heh. Sorry about that. Anyways, hope your conditions improve, and keep up the awesome writing!
3258909 Thanks, i will, as soon as i....write.