What am I if not happy?

Often I'm told I need to clean up my act 
Although maturity is something I lack
And so when some simple little problems arise
I overthink them over and over again

But it seems like the world is a troublesome place
And sometimes I feel like I should just end the pain
"You're sick, aren't you dear?"
I'm sick of the tears
Why can't everything just end simply?

Everything I aspire to be, nothing that will become of me
My expectations are too farfetched then what am I to do?
Give a sign, give a sign, a reason not to die
Give me a chance to prove my worth

I constantly search for a place to cry
Why won't these tears stop falling from my eyes?
It's hard to constantly think of the same things,
it's just unnecessary to think too much

You always told me stars would guide me back home,
but they only come out at night
You always showed me so much kindness,
I don't deserve it,
I have failed you too much

I think my tiny heart is gonna split,
just leave it be for now

Move far from me...
just let me be...
This winding road that I stumble on is never going to end
It's getting difficult to maneuver,
and there's no use in trying to run away
So I hold my hands over my ears and try to block out all the noise

How can I live not knowing what life is?
Sometimes my dreams seem to be more realistic

Obviously I can't be called happy but then...
What am I after all?
...

Comments

[HudsonHawk]

(Hugs tight)

What happened?

[Valiant Charge]

[Silvers 93]

We are here for you.

[VitalSpark]

If you're not happy, then let me know, and I'll do my best to cheer you up!

[A Nobody]

If you're not happy, we're your friends. We will do anything whithin our power to cheer you up.

[HudsonHawk]

What are you if not happy?

You are Infinity Shade.

[Infinity Shade]

3248584 *hugs* I just let myself fall too easy

[Infinity Shade]

3248586

[Infinity Shade]

3248587

[Infinity Shade]

3248590 Thanks

[Infinity Shade]

3248623 That means a lot

[Infinity Shade]

3248627 That really made me smile

[HudsonHawk]

3248664
I'm glad. I'm really glad.

(Hugs for as long as you need)

[Subject 19]

*Super tight, super loving hug that will never end* We'll always be here for you.

[Infinity Shade]

3248731

[Disavowed ASH]

Save this to a playlist.

[A Nobody]

3248662 If you ever need anything, you know where to contact me.