Sundown and the reason why I am not a good author. · 8:43pm Jun 9th, 2015
Hi all, I wish I could be telling you all that I have a new chapter for you, but I don't. In fact I am scrapping what I have and starting over. I had a hard time with this one cause I was going in a direction that I thought would be interesting to read, but I now realize my aversion to it stemmed from it not meshing well with the story as it is now.
I will be trying to get back on this saddle though, because what I wanted to do with Sundown is important to me, at least as much as it seems to be for some of you. I am still surprised (and frankly, frightened) how much attention this one story has gotten me.
Okay, so onto a bit about me then, I am both really lazy when it comes to writing and have a really good reason why I don't do it much. That reason is that I am frankly, not a happy person, and do not feel like I ever deserve to be so. Writing makes me happy in ways I can't quite understand. I feel bad about feeling happy, and so I stop writing out of guilt. I need to stop that, I need to bring this story out. Honestly, I wish I could say it was for you. You the reader of my horrible horse turned human words. It's not, I wrote Sundown for me as an attempt to address the emptiness I feel inside through the proxy of Sunset Shimmer.
I still feel guilty about writing, but I will endeavor to not let that rule me. I thank you all for staying with me while I had an existential crisis for the last few months. The next chapter will arrive when it is finished. (and after I apologize to my editors for vanishing)
Sometimes a story needs a rewrite. I had to do that myself and the story was better for it.
While slightly bummed by this, I hope the rewrite will be great.
3135368 Actually, its just the one chapter (and that whole doc filled with that frankly dumb plan.)
3135379 some plans don't work out. I know. but glad you are working on that. You shouldn't feel bad about being happy. Especially if your stories bring happiness to others.
Both Sundown and your choice one are on my read list for they interest me. Been eagerly waiting for both to update, but prefer waiting for a good quality chapter then a hastily made one. So take the time you need and know thjat at least one person looks forward to them.
3135393 Wow, you are seriously the only one I know of that is interested in Choice. That one would be a Magnum Opis if I could just get it down in words. That story is to explain Equestria and all of its quirks. It's built on some crazy world building, and actually is why Sundown exists. I felt awful for loving Choice and wanted to explore that feeling and understand it better.
3135412 Not many have tried to do that kind of story. And not too many try to do the sisters before the usual era where Twilight is. It's so fasinating thing for Celestia to originally be human and have a new start like that and I want to see where it goes.
3135407 Just a chapter you all never saw anyways is getting redone. I may someday do an extras chapter and put up some of my less embarrassing removed content.
Well I'm glad to hear that you are getting back into this story. I really do enjoy the concept of Sunset struggling with depression, partially because it is something that I've been struggling with myself. I guess it's just nice for me to see this issue explored more, after all depression is a very serious thing and can be very difficult to fight through. I do hope that you'll keep writing even if it is just for your sake. You do deserve to feel happy, and to receive help. I hope to see this rewrite soon, I believe in you.
I just recently found Sundown and I really enjoyed it. I love the way you're carefully going through the steps to helping someone through depression. Plus, I thought it was sweet to see some helpful interactions between Sunset and Celestia.
If you feel like you gotta rewrite what you have, then by all means. I hope you can find some happiness in writing that you can actually feel good about.