Not the Kind of Update I was Expecting To Make · 9:38pm Dec 30th, 2014
Well, as the title implies, this is not the kind of update I was thinking I was going to make today, but it certainly was a shocker.
Apparently, by all medical standards (White Blood Cell count, Hemoglobin, etc.), I should be ready to go home. My oncologist's prediction that my recovery should be a rather speedier one comparatively to most others' seemed to be right on target. So much for the month I was expecting to be in here. It sounds like the doctor is trying to get me out of here by Friday or Saturday. Sounds like great news, right? There's just one problem...
I don't FEEL ready. I'm still feeling weak as hell, I'm barely able to get down solid food (if ANY— I'd basically restricted myself to liquid food lately because I couldn't get any solid food down, but I woke up today and could barely drink my Ensure shake), and there are other reasons I won't discuss.
I should be thrilled. I should be jumping for joy, but I'm not (partly due to the fact that I can't jump without falling— last thing I need is another lump on my head). I honestly don't get it. I don't want to be here right now, especially during the holidays, but for some reason, I don't NOT want to be here, either... (Yes, I realize I am an editor, but Grammar Nazis, do your worst on that double negative— you know WTF I meant!)
Maybe if/when they kick me out early and take out this trifusion catheter I'll feel better about the whole thing, but for now... ugh. 
Have you told him how you feel? Sucks that all your food is liquid right now too. Hopefully you feel better by the end if the week if they are adamant on sending you home.
Ugh, yeah I find all too often with hospitals that they just want to get you out asap.
Hope you feel better soon… not for selfless reasons, of course, but because I need you to get back to work. *whipcrack*
Kidding, kidding*.
*Mostly kidding.