My Name: A Mushy Explanation · 3:26am Nov 7th, 2014
Whilst I sit here, on the family computer, partially distracted by my little sister's work on my finger nails, I can't help but think that I haven't blogged in a while.
Well, I thought this might be a good way to explain it.
My name, is a reference to Sherlock.
But I guess it could stand for the emotional "patch" that I give to people. I am a shoulder to cry on, that friend that will give you hugs when you aren't feeling well, the type of person who will show up at your door after a bad day with pizza and my extended Lord of the Rings DVDs.
In short, I like to provide an emotional patch, to help cover the holes and scars in people's hearts.
I just really love to help people feel better, and the reason I've been gone for so long is that the last person I tried to help, gave up.
They were causing me to become emotionally unstable, manipulating me when I tried to back out. I couldn't eat or sleep for days because I was so worried that they would kill themselves if I didn't help. I can't handle that pressure.
It was caused by multiple people, and I just got so stressed I was having panic attacks, my stomach was a mess, I couldn't keep anything down, so I would spend several hours just sitting and rocking myself. When I tried to break it off, I was terrified, a few repeats of what was listed before happened, and I was severely depressed. I felt so guilty, as if I had caused them to feel like they need to kill themselves.
Then I googled their username (different website), and it turns out this group of people were just a bunch of trolls.
That seriously scarred me. I felt like an idiot.
But I'm still depressed, but I can write a bit.
Currently, I'm working on my other stuff.
I'm just taking a break for a while.
Oh, that's what it means? Because I thought that you were trying to quit smoking, and you were so addicted to nicotine that you have to plaster three nicotine patches on your body at once, and you have a "three patch problem."