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crashandcortex


19, British, University Student (studying Game Development), Casual FIM fan & obsessive gamer. Generally specialize in Nintendo games and have a large lack of self confidence for better or for worse.

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    MERRY CHRISTMAS! 2015: Good?

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  • 493 weeks
    Binge Eating Update 4 - Fuck Everything

    I'm fucking done. Don't know how much more of this mental lethargy and self-pity I can take, and I'm descending into worse extremities regarding this fucking pathetic binge eating disorder every single day. It's destroying everything I have, my body, my academic performance, my potential future aspirations, my interest in daily activities, my social interactions, my... everything

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Oct
26th
2014

Crashing the party - crashandcortex · 6:42pm Oct 26th, 2014

Ehh, hey everybody! I'm crashandcortex, a Brit who happens to be a ginormous Nintendo fan, casual FIM fan & all-around decent (hopefully!) person! please don't eat me alive

My favourite series include the Pokemon series, Super Smash Bros. series, Super Mario Bros., Kirby, Kid Icarus, Mario Party, Mario Kart, and many old PS1 series such as the classic Crash Bandicoot and Spyro the Dragon games! I'm also a shiny hunter - that is to say I deliberately spend time looking for shiny colours of certain Pokemon, and upload pictures and videos of my findings in multiple places, including my Youtube channel of the same name! HERESY I'm studying Games Development at University, and eventually hope to get involved in the industry as a designer or developer in some form or capacity. Here's hoping!

While I'd like to say I'm a perfectly chirpy and pleasant individual to be acquainted with (and on my good days that may well be the case), I'm sadly in quite an emotional state at the current moment in time, and have a LOT of mental issues to contend with, with both lingering anxieties which have persisted for years as well as rather recent developments eating away at me and resulting in me becoming rather a bit of an introvert. Eating disorders of multiple varieties, a near-crippling lack of self-confidence, subpar conversational skills, a recent divorce within the family, and, while not in itself significant in any capacity, a minor supplement of Aspergers Syndrome which only makes it more difficult to accurately read emotions and empathize with others at critical and even insignificant situations - it's not exactly the worst that somebody can deal with, but that little laundry list of emotional & cognitive baggage certainly doesn't benefit anybody! Yeah, if you wanted to make it simple, you could say I'm an absolute catastrophe of a human being! :raritywink:

Still, these are all the epitome of 1st world problems honestly, and I still get by without too much catastrophe! Aiming to make a number of friends here at FIMFiction, and eventually write up a story or 2 when I gain enough confidence in my writing ability and time to stop procrastinating brainstorm ideas and flesh them out in an optimal and appealing fashion! I don't bite, and while the above hardships may put you off conversing with me (I don't blame you either), it'd certainly be a pleasure to get to know all of you! For the record, Fluttershy is best pony.

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