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crashandcortex


19, British, University Student (studying Game Development), Casual FIM fan & obsessive gamer. Generally specialize in Nintendo games and have a large lack of self confidence for better or for worse.

Feb
22nd
2015

New Year, what's changed? ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOTHING · 3:49pm Feb 22nd, 2015

In the lowest state I think I've ever been in, and considering I was practically depressed the entirety of last year as well that's saying more than you'd probably assume. Fucking eating disorder's brought out the worst facets in me on a multidimensional level, and I've degenerated into a barely functional waste due to my inability to curb it. Gets worse when you constantly see people who are living an amazingly happy successful life countless times on a daily basis and then go back to

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Dec
29th
2014

Very minor stuff · 2:03pm Dec 29th, 2014

Just decided to try jogging for the first time in absolutely forever. (since around... last Juneish. I know)

Barely managed 15 minutes (I assume just over a mile) without stopping until I felt drained, my feet started aching, my head felt dizzy and numb and I genuinely felt like I could've fainted if I went any longer, even though I did try to keep my breath.

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Dec
28th
2014

Binge Eating Update #5: A Slightly Different Form, + Christmas Problems · 7:01pm Dec 28th, 2014

Hope y'all had an amazing Christmas/Hearth's Warming Eve/Hanukkah everybody! The one time of the year where everyone seems to cut loose, temporarily disassociate themselves from any sort of negative baggage and just out & out have a holly, jolly, joyful, wonderful time with family & friends!

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Dec
24th
2014

MERRY CHRISTMAS! 2015: Good? · 6:58pm Dec 24th, 2014

2014 was an absolutely shit-tastic year, dare I say the worst fucking year of my life. Divorce, indecision regarding my uni course, an eating disorder which persists into the present fucking day, become over 30lbs heavier and become an obese 147+lb abomination, stupid fucking decision after stupid fucking decision, breaking ties with somebody I thought was a friend, I could go on and on and on. But even in the wake of such aggressively petulent pessimism, I do still see that faint,

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Nov
16th
2014

Binge Eating Update 4 - Fuck Everything · 4:51pm Nov 16th, 2014

I'm fucking done. Don't know how much more of this mental lethargy and self-pity I can take, and I'm descending into worse extremities regarding this fucking pathetic binge eating disorder every single day. It's destroying everything I have, my body, my academic performance, my potential future aspirations, my interest in daily activities, my social interactions, my... everything really...

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Nov
9th
2014

FUCKING LIVID · 8:00pm Nov 9th, 2014

An article that isn't about my pathetic struggle with binge eating?! Gee golly, nothing other than a divine intervention could have possibly caused this.

Well, almost. Replace "divine" with "demonic", and you'd be somewhere in the ball park.

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Nov
9th
2014

Binge Eating - Update 3 - Weigh-in, Possible New Strategy · 9:32am Nov 9th, 2014

So this morning I decided, by some inconceivably dumb impulse, to weigh myself.

10 stone fucking 7 lbs. (or if you'd prefer, 147 lbs)

FUCK. EVERYTHING.

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Nov
7th
2014

Binge Eating - Update 2 - Powerless · 5:30pm Nov 7th, 2014

I apologize for bringing this dumb, pathetic & redundant topic up again, but ugh I'm in the worst mood right now.

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Nov
2nd
2014

Binge Eating - Update 1 - Helpless & Upset · 8:14pm Nov 2nd, 2014

This will be the first in what likely may become a series of blog rants regarding my current struggle with Binge Eating Disorder (or alternatively: how I became a fat, useless piece of **** and gained a ridiculous sweet tooth). A lot of people would say I'm ridiculous for bringing this up when there are an innumerable amount of graver incidents plaguing both members of this site and our populace as a whole on a daily basis, and some of you may think that a 5,10 19 year old guy being

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Oct
26th
2014

Crashing the party - crashandcortex · 6:42pm Oct 26th, 2014

Ehh, hey everybody! I'm crashandcortex, a Brit who happens to be a ginormous Nintendo fan, casual FIM fan & all-around decent (hopefully!) person! please don't eat me alive

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