.... I'm sorry i have reached my breaking point · 10:57pm Oct 3rd, 2014
I'm sorry if i annoy so many of you i just got into something i didn't think would go the way it would but i falled to do what i said i was going to beacuse of my feelings the person i was talking to wasn't very nice but out of respect i will not ever say his name on this blog or anwcer any quetions about what happened i see it know a a privet matter but this isn't what this blog is about it is something to say sorry to all of you again....
I'm sorry if i have upset you all by lieing i have tryed to get this out of my head but every where i go on fimfiction i am reminded of it no matter what i do even if i don't take my medication witch i havent at all today it still wont get out of y head the one day my body chooses to not go insane when i want it to but with everything hear that is happening i have reached my breaking point not out of insanity but out of heart ache i cant stand these thoughts anymore i thought this would all go away but it hasn't i told my self and a very good and close friend on fimfiction that i would never utter these words on here ever again cus i told him i thought there is something worth living for but know im not so sure im still having nightmares im crying every day know cus of y sensitivity and all of my past and all the other things have come back to haunt me and not leave me alone and i jut cant stop my self from thinking........"wow im must be pretty unsignifigant if people hate me that much as to be so mean and crull to me" i know there are so any here that dis agre with this but i don't disagre with it.......
I just cant stop thinking about how much i would rather be dead and at peace than alive and in so much pain.
It's okay if you don't beallev what i am saying is true i wouldn't blame you after all i did i wouldn't beleve me ether you don't have to comment on this, infact I encurige you not to comment cus i wont respond it is hard enough for me right know to be typing this and crying at the same time i am so sorry i am being such a hypocrite about this i was complaning that no one commented on my stuff and know i am saying i won't respond to yours when you do and i am so sorry for doing this just i wouldn't comment at all cus i just wont respond.
I know you said don't comment, but I feel I should. That, and Darth's don't really follow rules very well.
I believe you have learned a lot and while it does take time to gain trust and forgiveness, I can say this. You already had my forgiveness and now, you have my trust back again.
Alright.... I'm commenting Rainbow.
You don't have to respond. Just.....
We love you. Some people just don't know the whole truth about what happened.
I'm sorry your going through so much pain dear, I've been off fim for a couple days and just read your last few posts. I know you feel that things are going badly but please know that there are people here and in your life who care about you and only hope our words can help. I pray for your safety and happiness, God bless you.
Why do you care about what people think about you, as long as you have your loved ones and friends? Why do you believe inaccuracies? What happened to the girl who played "Really Don't Care" or whatever that song is over her school loudspeaker system on the day she graduated? You're definitely strong enough, you just can't give up.
Shut up, shut up right now. Nothing goes the way it's suppose to, that's a way of life. For example, my science teacher did a experiment with us, my line was to walk straight, the other was to walk zig-zag, but that didn't happen because someone thought she was suppose to walk in a retarded line
. Yesterday it was sunny and clear out, but my school got caught on the tail end of a tornado. Unexpected, not how I imagined my day would go. You don't need to say sorry, you're a wonderful person and I wouldn't be writing a full page about it if I didn't mean it.
Lies, what lies? I don't think I was here for that. Here's a solution, take a break. It's been months since I've been on a account on another website. It was too gloomy for me, now I'm back and better than ever
. It's the internet. Relationships are made and they are wrecked here. I voice my opinions and get dislikes, but I try not to think what I did wrong, instead I look at my real friends and others who I actually care about and ask for their opinions. I watch from the back and tend not to interfere with conversations, this happens mostly with my friends. I think of myself lowly when someone says something about me, but I am reminded when ever I listen to happy music or people favorite my artwork. Your allowed to do whatever you want, but remember your followers are here for you.
Also, I would like to say you are an awsome person and even if you don't reply or want me to comment, I'm going to do it anyway. So, you're just going to have to deal with it
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Idk what happened, I'm late.
Take a break mate. Enjoy your life. After that we all can sort thing out!
Hey, it's all right...some people can't see how sorry you are...
