I'm Confused! · 9:38pm Jun 21st, 2014
I'm really confused.
I know full well that the world is a cruel, cruel place. I never said otherwise. That would be denying everything true. But lying... That's wrong right?
I know that 99% of my life is going to be just one big lie. But... Isn't there supposed to me that 1%? I always thought that that was your family. The people you could tell everything to. Who won't judge or push you away. Who will listen and be there to give any kind of support. To beat up a guy who hit you or to stand by you're side if you're in deep trouble.
That's what family is for right? You could spill you're secrets and heart out to them and they to you with no fear of ever changing the way you see them. They will still love you. Right?
After today I changed my mind. Oh god did I change my mind.
Whoever created the word LIFE should have made it more easier and just took the letter F out since we don't need it.
Just a LIE.
Holy cow, what happened that you consider your family not trustworthy anymore?
2225718
Well they literary told me I'm insane and that I need ~profesional help~ besides droping everything that I was talking just before them for god damned fifteen minuets about the past 13 yers of my life they threw it into water and flushed it down the toilet.
And when I needed a hug my mom told me that I need to learn to start faking a smile and putting on a mask. That was what made me cry and now I fell into a three to four day depression. Again.
So that's what happened.
2225747
Maybe I'm rubbing salt into the wound, but by chance, your mother is right: When we are in public we have to hide our feelings and personalities before strangers. Its to protect ourselves from harm, sad as it is.
About that ''professional'' help, I don't know you well enough to make a sentence, speak to your friends, ask them to honestly talk to you and if they too think you need psychiatric supervision.
Remember: when everything goes wrong, you still have yourselves, ponies and your fantasy.
Keep struggling, after every hurricane comes a rainbow
2226311
Yeah I guess you're right. And I know my mom is up to some point. But since you're here. Wanna do an RP by PMing?
2226319 sry I'm from Germany, and left after my answer, I'd like to try roleplaying by time, never done it before. Just send me a message and I'll reply as soon as I find the time, which should be daily.
2225747
Well... Life is very much about how you preserve it, and sometimes we wear a mask. Still, there is at least one person you should not lie to, and that's yourself. Because no matter what happens you are stuck with yourself, threw think and thin.
Sure I can't be every emotion or thought I want to be at any given time (trust me, I wouldn't want to be.), but I can choose the ones I want, when I want them. So in a way yes, it's not really me, but at the same time it's still my choice; I am choosing their perception of me.
This is maybe getting a little side tracked, but It's important at the end of the day to love ourselves. Because at the end of the day, they are the ones who will be there for us.
2363921
thanks. But I do wanna ask ya something. Do you wanna do an RP? It may not be about MLP but...
2363926
Sure