The Kiss of the Dark Drama, One Year Later · 6:47am Jun 7th, 2014
Well...not technically a year, but close enough :P
So it's been a little over a year when I cancelled Kiss of the Dark. I'm not exactly sure what I'm going to gain by talking about it, or even if there's going to be a big new insight into the situation now, but I feel compelled to say SOMETHING about it, given it was a big event in my life and one that might still have some influence on me.
There's one thing I did want to say: What happened to me right after that incident. Truth be told, I don't think the drama had an impact on my well being immediately. Keep in mind, this was the summer of 2013 in the fandom. Season 3 had just ended with possibly the most controversial episode FIM will ever make, and Equestria Girls was making constant headlines on Equestria Daily. I didn't notice the effect KOTD had on me until then, because the fandom drama was taking up all of my attention when it came to pony.
Another thing was...to be honest, at first I was relieved to have cancelled the story. Why? Because by that point, I was borderline exhausted. If you look at the upload dates for several of the chapters, you'll notice that they were made at a very fast pace. Some of them were literally made less than 24 hours apart.
Why do I work so fast? Well, on top of me being a fast writer in general, I just really want to get this stuff out of my head. This stuff tends to fester in my head unless I deal with it immediately, to the point where I feel ashamed if I didn't write anything on a day I was supposed to. So in a sense, I was getting tired at the end but still felt like I NEEDED to keep writing.
Seriously, less than a week after I cancelled the story, I went to go see Fast and Furious 6 in the theaters again, and it was such a relief. It was nice to feel like I didn't need to work on something next Monday, and I could just enjoy something without a worry in the world.
Of course, it wasn't like KOTD's drama didn't have an impact on me...it just took more than a day to sink in....
So here's a question I never really answered: What brought me back? It would take a while to find, but there was a comment on my profile asking me to finish the story. That's nothing new, I got a lot of those.
But something about its wording...I don't know. It was like it lit a fire under my ass flank. Like, something about it made me want to prove everyone and even myself wrong, and finish the story in spite of what happened. Like, I had an inner warrior and that comment brought it back to life. That is, if it makes sense...
Oh, and another thing. Those last two chapters? I wrote it all on a tablet, because our PC got a virus that killed it for good. Yeah, I wrote it on a tablet, and then I wrote the three following stories all on a tablet as well.
Speaking of which, let's finish this by talking about those three stories that followed Kiss of the Dark, those being Celestia and Luna's Day Off, Her Guardian, and Fluffle Puff's Epic Date Time....
Really, those stories were my idea of calming down after I finished KOTD. They were sweet stories in a way, even Her Guardian, which at least hinted at a deep friendship between the dragon and Fluttershy. They were stories that I was proud of for different ways. Tia and Luna's Day Off and Her Guardian I enjoyed, because it felt very relationship driven and I'm really happy with how it all went. Fluffle Puff...yeah, I love Fluffle Puff. End of story.
And Tia and Luna's Day Off...that was written at a very dark time in my life, for reasons I won't get into. I came home one night after a horrible day, one that was personal hell in many ways. I had just uploaded that story and honestly didn't think it would gain much traction. It didn't early on, so when I came home, I just grabbed my tablet and did some stuff.
When I went to FIMFiction, Celestia and Luna's Day Off was on the top spot within the feature box.
I believe that was a blessing from God to this day, because that was just the thing I needed. You have no idea how amazing it was to see that, being the first story on that slot since Pinkie Pie Discovers Coffee for me. I was blown away and it was one of the best surprises I've ever received. So...thank you again for that. It was...wow.
So yeah...that's pretty much all I wanted to say. I...I think I said all that needed to be said about the KOTD drama, and I hoped this story gave you a better idea of what happened around that time. Until then, see you all later, and Season 4 was best season.
Soothing Stone
Well said.
I haven't finish reading KOTD, wasn't able to finish many stories honestly since RL got to me most of the time. Now that it is summer, I might be able to finish what I had saved on my Read Laters and Favourites. -smiles softly-
Which side? Or does that not matter?
I guess I shouldn't really be surprised you wrote this, but I can say I'm proud you did.
Burnouts suck, but it's always nice to see an author rebound from them. Write when you feel like it and don't let anyone pressure you into it.
Just wondering did you ever fix your Computer or are you still writing on the tablet?
2223430 I got a new one for my birthday. It's AT LEAST ten times stronger and faster than my old one.