I Believe an Explanation is in Order... · 2:30am Apr 19th, 2014
So, I'm finally back. Sorry I got pissed, ranted, and subsequently left. The straw that broke the camel's back was a teacher failing work I had done that was not fail worthy as deemed by multiple third parties, thus making me unable to keep my scholarship. Ironic how I pulled an April Fools joke and it comes back to bite me in the ass by being a reality.
That last straw also caused me to, on a lark, see someone in the psychology field, and in their opinion, I am showing warning signs of depression. The scary part is, I don't think they're far off either. I even think they kind of undersold it given my past battles with depression. I also am showing a lot of symptoms in the last few months, such as apathy, lethargy, loneliness, and generally not having passion for things I used to find joy in and to some degree built my life around. Even reading and writing my beloved literature is a chore now.
So, yeah. I just wanted to catch you guys up so you don't think I'm dead.
I hope that you start to feel better. Maybe a nice hike would help. Have a great day.
2023367
Actually, I did take one while I was home last weekend and it did help immensely to calm me down. I appreciate the thought, mate.
Sure is a lot of blogs detailing depression going around here, lately.
Hope you feel better, soon.
2023410
I appreciate it. Have there been a lot? I didn't notice lately.
2023424
Well, for ME there has been.
checking my "feed", you were the second person to post a blog on being depressed.
the fist being this person.
I myself have been leaning down that road..but, thankfully I haven't gotten there.
mainly because my latest posted story received 27 dislikes, which would have bothered me..
if not for the fact that It also garnered 23 likes.
So, I am having a "Glass is Sorta Empty/Sorta Full" issue, here.
Anyways, I again hope that you have a better day eventually.
2023439
Eventually, yes. Luckily, I am to some degree a man of science, and logic dictates that true rock bottom is impossible to reach. Therefore, things could always be worse. I suppose that's an optimistic enough thought to keep me going.