TBrothers in Arms
MLP: FiM
Sgt. Matthew Baker and the 101st Airborne drop into Equestria during Operation Market-Garden
Gore
Crossover
Human
Main 6
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Apologies (BiA) · 9:43pm Apr 8th, 2014

I'm writing these three for my top three stories, at least the ones that aren't one-shots, of course. And for what, well mainly the long update periods. It's been over a month since I've tried to write anything period, and far longer since I tried to continue these. I feel somewhat ashamed about it, and things can't fully seem to keep up.

One of the reasons for this is my hectic schedule, although, looking over my own work, it's not an entire excuse itself; I'll admit I was lazy at times, and I'll apologize for that as well. After that (and one could probably guess this already), I've come up with several new ideas of various design and in varying stages of completion; and since my mind never stops thinking, I've got around 100 odd story ideas (counting those I have, as I've never fully completed anything) and I keep wanting to try new things. I also deal heavily with Paranoia and Depression, which can delay things quite a bit.

But beyond all of that is the most horrid, damning thing. I just can't get the good feeling from writing anymore, and indeed my spirited, prided, kind of pure happiness feeling I found when I first joined the fandom is lost. I love almost everything about it, and I love you all especially as family. Yet now I don't feel that giddy feeling I long for, the feeling of uniqueness is missing, and I'm trying to find it. It started festering a while back, and just exploded when the group thread notifs were turned off and interaction just vanished. When I did my first story I did it on something I loved and I'll admit it was nowhere near great, but I enjoyed doing it through all the work. Now writing doesn't feel... rewarding.... it feels like a chore. Whenever I open a doc to write something, I actually find myself sighing, like I'm doing homework or something.

But I've resolved to get past this now. I'm going to write what I feel like writing. I'm going to write in the style I feel comfortable with. And with my first anniversary of joining the fandom just around the corner, I will do something. From now on, my writing isn't going to be a business. This is going to be about the same thing the fandom is about, fun. It's as simple as that.

Brothers in Arms I remember being interesting, as I did it in a snap decision upon a request from someone. No real prior planning, which is rare for me. It must've been a good decision, as it seems to be doing well now. Though one of my gripes is how I followed the dialogue and story so closely, which I guess shows my advancement in writing skill. I feel like it might be from my portrayal of WW2, which I seem to specialize in above all else. But thing is, when you spend half your year being the main person on a WW2 Trivia team and practicing for it, and coming in first, you tend to get a bit tired of it. So that's basically what happened, I just got sick of it in general for a little while. But a nice break will do wonders, so I might pick it up again some time soon. Expect a lot of things to come to a head next, as in the game, but someone's going to be dying again soon. I'm also going to skip the last chronological battle in the game, but trust me when I say the action is far from over; it's not even cooling down.