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523 weeks
Guess Who's Back Motha-

BASS DROP BSLDFHLSDALSDHGB
No, really guys, I'm back, after that godawful period of depression! I'm better! Hi, and all, yeah.
Anyway, Just glad to be back.
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559 weeks
A COMPILED LIST OF ALL THE TIMES I'VE LET MYSELF GET SCARED BY MY OWN THOUGHTS

In recent memory.
My father is playing old forties music. The choir sounded like air sirens and it reminded me of those movie scenes where the nuke is falling with the sirens and everybody is screaming and the song is just playing and I freaked the fuck out like I thought it was real and I shat a little bit. .-.
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560 weeks
And Everything Looks Perfect From So Far Away

Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself? Can I still be forgiven after I killed that kid? It was an accident i swear it wasn't meant for him. If I turn it on me, if I even it out can I still get in, or will they send me to Hell?
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561 weeks
that person is me

Imagine being someone who can't control what they accept. Who gets everything from around them, with no way to filter it. Who can't understand any of it, but gets it anyway. Who is happy one moment, and sad the next. Who can't keep a fucking friend for more than a month before they give up. Who can't help themselves. Who can't do anything to make it better, because they don't think they can. Who
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561 weeks
I'm getting so tired

Of this fucking depression. It's fucking killing me. Every day is a random pattern of happiness and depression. I can't stand it. It's ruining my life, and I don't have the balls to stand up qnd fix it. all I do is complain because I'm scared. As much as i hate this pain, it's the only thing I understand. My autism racked brain can't wrap around many things. But I know this pain. In and out. I
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