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Darksons


Apr
15th
2014

Guess Who's Back Motha- · 8:00pm Apr 15th, 2014

BASS DROP BSLDFHLSDALSDHGB
No, really guys, I'm back, after that godawful period of depression! I'm better! Hi, and all, yeah.

Anyway, Just glad to be back.

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Aug
10th
2013

A COMPILED LIST OF ALL THE TIMES I'VE LET MYSELF GET SCARED BY MY OWN THOUGHTS · 3:12am Aug 10th, 2013

In recent memory.

My father is playing old forties music. The choir sounded like air sirens and it reminded me of those movie scenes where the nuke is falling with the sirens and everybody is screaming and the song is just playing and I freaked the fuck out like I thought it was real and I shat a little bit. .-.
Which reminded me that for some reason, at like, seven in the morning one day, i just heard a loud fucking BANG. Like, I woke up and my ears were ringing and it hurt. Really loud.

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Aug
4th
2013

And Everything Looks Perfect From So Far Away · 4:22am Aug 4th, 2013

Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself? Can I still be forgiven after I killed that kid? It was an accident i swear it wasn't meant for him. If I turn it on me, if I even it out can I still get in, or will they send me to Hell?

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Jul
26th
2013

that person is me · 5:31am Jul 26th, 2013

Imagine being someone who can't control what they accept. Who gets everything from around them, with no way to filter it. Who can't understand any of it, but gets it anyway. Who is happy one moment, and sad the next. Who can't keep a fucking friend for more than a month before they give up. Who can't help themselves. Who can't do anything to make it better, because they don't think they can. Who is so scared of reality, they build a fantasy to keep from facing it. Who can't stand thinking about

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Jul
25th
2013

I'm getting so tired · 2:31am Jul 25th, 2013

Of this fucking depression. It's fucking killing me. Every day is a random pattern of happiness and depression. I can't stand it. It's ruining my life, and I don't have the balls to stand up qnd fix it. all I do is complain because I'm scared. As much as i hate this pain, it's the only thing I understand. My autism racked brain can't wrap around many things. But I know this pain. In and out. I know exactly what it is. Why it is. I hold onto it because it's the only thing I know. Thoroughly.

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Jul
24th
2013

Weird Dream · 1:37am Jul 24th, 2013

I had an odd dream. In my dream i turned over a piece of paper and on the back was written a five word poem.

Not Dead
Child Continue
Now

It's been haunting me, with it's eerie nature and unknown meaning. I know it sounds cliche. I don't write poetry. But this.came to me in a dream. Interesting.

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Jul
21st
2013

well, howdy everypony. · 2:42am Jul 21st, 2013

How ya doing. This is just a short personal message to you all.

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Jul
11th
2013

Goodnight, Everypony · 6:47am Jul 11th, 2013

G'night, i guess. See ya. Love you, I'll try not to break down again.

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Jul
11th
2013

I need some help... · 4:23am Jul 11th, 2013

I'm in a pit, guys. I need help. I'm depressed and I'm at least aware enough to know I'm suicidal... I just don't see the point in being around. I'm not helping anyone. All i do all day is read fanfic, cry, and get into pointless arguments... I can't stand this life. I want to end it...

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Jul
7th
2013

another day, another drawl · 4:58am Jul 7th, 2013

Well, I got back from vacation. I'm tired. I still can't cope with emotions...
Normal day. how about you guys?

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