I just didn't understand it..... · 6:37pm February 1st
I was going back and reading a Discord conversation me and my friend had..... We were talking about woke ideologies and rascism and women and she told me a few things she is concerned about, things that concern her about me..... And I didn't understand it..... I was reading this conversation for the first time again since we had it and it looks so different now..... She tried to help me, tried to make me understand in what direction I was going, and she put so much effort into explaining it to me, but I didn't understand it. I just kept going with a rant, without addressing her, and I talked hateful and aggressive and completely missed the point of everything she said..... She even got desperate, said "Please, just stop....." and "Why are you being like this, please....." and even that didn't get through to me. She tried to make me aware of something, how much I had changed and how much I wasn't myself, but I just didn't understand it..... It all flew over my head, because I was trapped in something. In hatred and aggression. And I didn't even notice that. Only now, when I read that conversation again, I understand what she meant and what she was trying to do. And now it might be too late.
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