A week since my brain surgery! · 9:30pm Jul 17th, 2023
Yep it's officially been a week since I got my brain tumor removed! So far, I'm getting better bit by bit, although I'm worried about the biopsy not coming back yet. Right now I'm trying to write again, although I have to say thanks to my recent years of gathering head issues I've hit a point where I'm often forgetting the correct word for things in a way that I previously haven't. Also, I've been in the mental spot where I can't find the ABSOLUTE PERFECT words to use, or the BLISFULLY PRECISE way to describe things while writing, which is one of the things that most often keeps me from trying to write at all. I'm hoping now that I am on Prozac (aka Fluoxetine) I'll be able to overcome that desire to not write for lack of perfection, and just write even if it is far, FAR from some imagined perfection. I feel like being able to put out stories is more important than waiting forever for some imagined writing perfection. So the thing I'm working on right now is a backstory for Ruined Forever, and in light of the things that have happened to me recently, I've just started chipping away on it day by day and not stressing over sitting there not writing forever trying to determine the PERFECTION WORDING to use.