How I'll manage future short fics (blethering again. It happens)

I'm so sorry a few of my blogs are rants. I want to talk positively about things and promote harmony but there have been a serious personal issue I have to get off my chest. Before I go off on another silly tangent, I want to make it clear I have no ill will towards anyone and that I'm not mentally okay. I've mentioned in the past that I have a difficult time socializing and communication— I suffer in silence too often. I rarely talk in Discord servers and nobody could even know there's something up. That's why I have to talk about the future of my speedwrite collection. It's continuation is up in the air... sort of. As you may know, last year I threw a hissy fit about the Quills & Sofas Speedwriting Group and I was in the wrong.
Basically, I complained about feeling invisible and ignored by everyone whilst pinning the blame on everyone but me. That wasn't fair. They had no idea I felt so strongly about equal opinionated critiques. After that, I participated in the group more and warmed up a little. I was wrong about everyone playing favorites when it came to ranking stories.
Not anymore— my fears and worries are actually valid now. I'm a crappy writer and shouldn't expect any praise for my work but this isn't really about me. I'm here to inform you that the place became a glorified friend group with twelve admins at their disposal to lift each other up. That's not ok. Imagine a new person joining and competing in competitions against people with a winning bias. Obviously they're going to adore works written from their buddies rather than giving a fair score towards a newer member.
That's why I left for good... not that they care. In my other blog post whining about them, I noted how unfair I was for generalizing the participants as a whole. Okay— I don't think I did? I don't exactly remember but this has gotten bad. My suggestion: Don't have so much admins. And they're friends too. Another suggestion is to host contests where the seasoned writers who write perfectly crafted stories aren't allowed to participate. If they had it where the lesser known participants actually have a chance at winning, it wouldn't discourage them from joining future contests. Imagine wanting to participate in a writing competition and then someone like Stephen King attends.
For the people who want to stretch their abilities as a writer and feel good for once, I propose joining a group that's down to earth and friendly.
Bean's Writing Group. It's not as professionally made and composed like Quill's but you have a fair chance at your writing talents being noticed. I have to admit, it's also *sort of* a group of friends catering to one another but they at least don't hide it. In fact, you'll be welcomed to join them.
Back to the main point of this blog: I think I may join Bean’s group somewhere down the road to feel better about my writing. They're so understanding of my craft. So sick and tired of participating in a contest just to immediately get obliterated by issues someone has with my piece without advice on how to improve.
My speed write stories may be discontinued and replaced by one-shots because this group handles things differently. Expect the title of the my anthology fic to change some day.
Well, I conclude the handling of Quill’s at the moment... how does one describe this...

Most of them float through a delicious wall of jello, enjoying desserts and hugs while those who follow stop at a brick wall.
Alone, while they deal with an unknown threat.

Unless I'm told a stranger in their group wins a contest or the admin number shrinks, I am completely comfortable with my opinion on the group's accidental unfair practices.