Uhhhh I haven't written anything in a while (again) so I should probably let everyone know that I'm alive???? · 11:19am Dec 18th, 2022
Uhhhhhh, hi everyone? Yeah, that's how I'm supposed to start these off. Hi, everyone. 
I won't lie, I miss writing horse words. I definitely need to get back into it. I also need to get back into the habit of talking to you guys, because I am absolutely terrible at that and if I went too long without speaking to anyone then I think I would probably forget how to speak at all. Introverted personality really showing through there. 
So, why exactly have I not been writing?
First of all, I've been busy with mock exams as of late, in preparation for the Final Exams Of Eternal Doom in May. I've not exactly not been writing - I write still, but it's more just personal stuff that I'd rather not see published. Things like poetry and snapshots of scenes from my life and a lot of emotional... I don't want to call it "rubbish" or "nonsense," but those are the words coming to mind. I'll try to think of something better.
I've also been in a bit of an iffy mental state recently. I've spent so long trying to take care of other people who I've seen as being in a much worse position than I am that I've almost neglected myself in a way. I still need to see a psychologist - terrible NHS waiting times plus strikes everywhere equals even worse NHS waiting times for those who really needed help months ago - but I've also started journalling and I'm hoping that that will help. I'm just slowly dissecting my thought processes and trying to find some of the little flaws to see if there's anything that I can fix myself.
So, yeah, that's what I'm doing right now. Self care and exam stuff, then ponies.
I should probably mention that Iredwolf and I are no longer together. I haven't been scrolling through his feed because I thought that that would probably just mess things up in my head, and I haven't spoken to him in a while, so I don't really know how he's doing or even if he's said anything about it online. I'm not sure if speaking to him would be a good idea or not, whether it would help him any or just leave things even more bitter between us, but I'd appreciate it if a few of you just make sure he knows he has support out there if he needs it. And if you're reading this, Iredwolf, I just want to tell you to stay safe. Look after yourself out there.
I think that's all from me for now? I might try and scribble down some horse words for the holiday season, but no promises that I can bash out an entire novella in a week.
Stay safe and be kind,
~ Angel
ired seems fine. i didnt know that u 2 broke up, hope you 2 will be fine with each other in osme time. hoep u get ur mental helth sorted and exams get good marks 💀🙂👍 hope habve u good da y
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*hug* I'm sorry to hear about your breakup, and I wish you good luck with your exams.