After many years, I have relaunched my Patreon. It's mostly for my art and comics. Speaking of which, you can read the first few pages of my BDSM cyberpunk furry comic Torture Angel Pauli over there.

Not sure what I'm going to do with it. Doing a lot of furry art and comics right now on Furaffinity, and my normie erotica is still what keeps the lights on.

Miss horse butts and horse drama tho. And I have SO many unfinished fanfics.

Unfinished projects are my thing; my hard drives and cloud accounts are like graveyards for stillborn ideas. And yet no project is truly abandoned while I yet live.

And it's still ongoing. There are some things you want to do, something things you have to do for loyalty, and some things you have to do for survival. If there's an afterlife, I hope I can just write and draw and put things in a library when I'm done with them. It doesn't matter if anyone but God sees them. I want to make things forever without being interrupted by the needs of life.

ANYWAY that's glum. But hopefully the bad stuff will be over in a few months? Hooves crossed.

Brave new world, that has such thestrals in it.

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I have different meds in the pipeline. We'll see how that goes.

Probably am gonna serialize PoS II (Now sub-sub-titled Teenage Wasteland) but even getting to that point is going to take months so... you know. Long haul. Long haul is hard when your brain is always chasing the shinnies but I can try.

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Edit: Edit: Someone made me remember to talk to my psychiatrist! Trying alternate medication!

The Adderall shortage has turned into a Concerta shortage, and I'm saving the dregs I have for times when I REALLY need to focus. So. I'll be managing my ADHD mostly with meditation, which I'm sure would be awesome if I were a Buddhist monk. But I'm a syncretic weirdo, so I'll a bit erratic, probably. But you're used to that, right?

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Just digging around in my first Fo:E because I changed the Dashites from 'just pegasai exiled from the GPE' to 'a resistance movement meant as smart ass commentary on Kkat's Christianity' and now I'm leaning into it and I need to remind myself what the tenets I made up for it are.

[Edit: Also, treating it this way probably isn't going to make any sense as I go along with it, but... throws up hooves I don't know. I'm learning as I go.]

I do not approve of using AI for creative purposes, nonetheless I am curious what they are capable of. Below the break is a FlutterDash I had ChatGPT wrote for me. It's boilerplate, but cute.

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Not so much the old days of Brony, because it is what it is. Big fandom, small fandom, it doesn't matter. When one has a significant relationship, one triesone's best to be loyal, no matter what.

When I first started, tho, I was a stay at home dad whose daughter had just stated going to kindergarten. Was I wicked depressed? Yes. Was my then-undiagnosed ADHD at an all time high? Also yes. Did I really need a break, and have an opportunity to take one?

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Or I like it because it is hard, because I am a masochist and also enjoy things like roguelikes, hot chili peppers, and zen meditation. Difficult but worth it. I've done this... well I've gotten a complete first draft of more than 40K words four or five times now. Complete novels? One that I'm still revising. Right now in my process on Pos II I'm working on the first chapter, brain storming set pieces, and converting my Scrivener doc from Save the Cat to Dan Harmon Story Circle, which last

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