Off my Meds · 4:46pm May 18th, 2023
Edit: Edit: Someone made me remember to talk to my psychiatrist! Trying alternate medication!
The Adderall shortage has turned into a Concerta shortage, and I'm saving the dregs I have for times when I REALLY need to focus. So. I'll be managing my ADHD mostly with meditation, which I'm sure would be awesome if I were a Buddhist monk. But I'm a syncretic weirdo, so I'll a bit erratic, probably. But you're used to that, right?
I'm seriously reconsidering if I don't want to serialize PoS II. I'm getting to the end of the first chapter (probably gonna top 10K words by itself) and I'm starting to suspect that it's going to take me a very, very long time. Like it might actually be 'Fallout: Equestria fic length' not 'fantasy novel length' like the first one. Aaaand I don't really want to be off the site for the years and years this might take. Or trying to cram in filler stories I don't really want to do to stay relevant. So. Maybe posting a long chapter every month or two might work better for me? I risk flaking, but... well, some story is better than no story.
I'm also feeling my mortality these days. Barring fascists, weather, freak accident or real-life nuclear war I should probably last another 30 or 40 years, but you never know, do you? Again, it tends to push me towards serializing.
I'll just have to ignore my stats so I don't get discouraged.
But. As I mentioned. Off my meds.
[Edit: I typoed 'flaking' as 'flanking' lol. I play too many strategy games.]
hope it works out CH!
too many strategy games, or too much poni? :O
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Dem flanks.
okay?
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I'll get through.
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hope so