I've been lonely and empty lately.

It feels as though everything has collapsed.

I don't know the future. I don't know what may come. But I don't think any tomorrows will beat my yesterdays.

I am here and trudging along.

But it's always felt like I've lived my days wrong

And have been on a wrong path.

I don't know what's wrong.

I just don't feel anything to be right.

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Fuck everything

My courage is fictional

And why I live in fantasies.

I need a car for work, and do, I went to a dealership. Got talked into buying a new car. I figured the sale doesn't go through until the loan is approved.

I thought wrong.

Turns out the car is yours the second you sign. I hope to fuck they take my thousand-dollar deposit and cancel the sale.

I was so burnt to try to buy the car from a friend of the family that I wasted a month on it. My lack of patience got to me. Even if this nightmare ends—i still need to hunt for a car.

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