Lost and Afraid

by Mr Anomalous

What Have I Done?

What Have I Done?

What have I Done?

That's the question that refused to stop permeating my mind, no matter where else I tried to make my mind wander, that nagging question always found its way back to me, like a hidden cancer that refused to die away.

The state that my mindset was in was dark, very discouraged, and very cold. I had absolutely no idea where I was, none, zero, zip.

When the spell had ended, I had fully expected myself to be in the bright city of Canterlot, the sun sending its warm rays of light around the majestic buildings. But I got just the opposite.

Where I found myself was, instead... somewhere.

After the the light and the turbulence of my spell faded away, I was assaulted on all sides by freezing wind and heavy snowfall.

Naturally, I was quite surprised. This was not what I had expected at all. But, soon, my surprise was ripped from my mind, replaced instead by an unnatural cold.

It was freezing, a blacker cold then I could have ever imagined, colder then I had ever felt. I couldn't see, far to dark. It was nighttime, as far as I could tell, but it didn't mattered; I needed to find shelter.

I tried what I did best: magic. I still do not know to this day why it never worked.

I could not create a shield, nor could I create a light. I began to panic. I was terrified beyond belief. Not only had I failed to teleport to where I had wanted to, but now my magic wouldn't work whatsoever. For a unicorn such as myself, that is terrifying, especially when my special talent is indeed magic.

What would I do without magic? Would I never be able to use it again? If not, then wouldn't that mean that I wouldn't be able continue my studies with Princess Celestia?

Words cannot explain how I felt at that moment. I felt bare, naked, stripped, helpless, lonely and afraid, just to name a few.

I began to blindly fumble around in the darkness, trying my best to find something, anything, that I could hide behind or under. I found one.

As I was stumbling, I felt a second or two of a lighter wind. I back-tracked a bit and found the area again. Yes, the wind was definitely not as bad here.

I felt around for a bit and my hoof hit something. It was solid, and large enough to hunker down next to, so I gladly accepted its presence.

Despite my fear, and the cold, I found myself drifting into a sleep. I knew that I couldn't, something could get me in my sleep, or I could get hypothermia. But...I couldn't help myself. My eyelids dragged down, ready to shut out all of the cold and the misery, if only for a few minutes.

I knew that I shouldn't have, but I did anyway. I welcomed the black bliss, the illusion of warmth, and I drifted away, there, in that unknown land where my magic was useless, where I was lost and afraid.

I went to sleep.

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I awoke to the sound of wind. Of course, there had been wind when I had arrived, but the wind...it was different. It was lighter.

I was alive and well, as far as I could tell. Then I realized that I could finally see. The blizzard was still raging, as was the wind, but it had all died down a bit, much to my thanks.

I turned around and gasped at what I had been leaning against. I cannot tell you what it was, because I have no idea. I can only tell you that it was some sort of machine. It was massive, made from metal. Several severed wires protruded from several broken parts. There was a smashed window and, inside, a seat and a worn control panel.

Whatever it was, three quarters of it was buried beneath the snow and ice, and it was ages old. Something quite advanced had created this, but I was not sure what it was. Where was it now? Hiding? Dead? Who knew?

I looked around and noticed several other shapes in the snow. As I looked closer I saw that they were only trees. Dead, nasty, gnarly trees, dead for a long time, but not permitted to decay because of the constant presence of the ice, freezing them over.

I was still tired, and I decided to see if I could find a safer place to drift away again. I climbed inside the machine, and found that, compared to the frozen outer world, it was still. I explored the small area, and found a hatch.

All attempts to open it were in vain, for it was frozen shut.

I curled up against the wall, farthest from the broken glass, and permitted myself to rest once more.

I. I was the prized student of Princess Celestia, the Element of Magic, and one of the most knowledgeable ponies in Equestria. I am not a boaster, but I am prideful in these things. Yet, all of this, and I was stuck. I was lost. I was lost and afraid, with no way to get home, not way to reassure my friends I was alright, at least for the moment, and no way to get warm. Again, I was assaulted by feelings of insignificance and incompetence. Then, all of that was replaced by hope. Hope that I would find a way back, hope that Princess Celestia would find me, and hope that I would see my friends again.

I looked back outside, and the negativity came back. I was alone. I was lost and I was afraid.

I was going to die all by myself, in the cold, never to be found, no one every knowing where exactly I went. I cried myself into a sleep filled with nightmares and without happiness.

Comments

[Irongalley]

Comrade, you is in posting spree!

[poisedanimeBloke]

Omigosh! This is going to be amazing!

I wonder if this is a post-nuclear war Earth? Maybe communism made a comeback... anyways I hope to see more of this as well as other stories. Maybe Twilight will find out what happened here? My understanding of plot lines tell me that she will probably find out why. It is obviously Earth, I mean look she is right next to a car or truck! And made out of solid metal so I am guessing Military of some kind... oooh!

Here take all the moustaches!

[JDPrime22]

Wow! Absolutely incredible masterpiece you have written! I give you five out of five moustaches!
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