Heavy

Some days, it just feels like you're carrying a weight you can't see. You just feel it there and, the more you think of it, the heavier it gets.
(No, this is not about my colitis flaring back up, this is personal.)
Your head doesn't say the things you want while your mouth says words no one hears, surrounded by people you love that still feel like a smothering force, and you just struggle with the selfishness you feel welling up inside.

I want to go somewhere, but people will miss me. I want to splurge, but I feel judged if I do. I want to scream, but no one will hear me. So why am I even typing this?
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Meh, catharsis.

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[FanOfMostEverything]

Everyone needs some way to scream at the world. Here's hoping this helped a little.