Life changes · 6:56am Mar 18th, 2022
My uncle passed the other day, early in the morning. But I didn't find out until after working on our tractor and my brother in law showed up. my dad was one of the first told, but he'd forgotten to even mention it to me despite living with him. This afternoon he picked out a new place for our vegetable garden and used gasoline and diesel fuel to kill the grass so I got a 60x20 section that's doing to be a dead, muddy mess for a decade. He's forgetting things, he gets distracted easily... he doesn't act like normal humans.
I'm doing my best, I really am but damn am I feeling like things are building up to something else. My mom's suggesting that my sister and I sit down and talk (something we've never been able to really do) about my dad and that it may soon come to the point that he can't take care of himself.
Sorry for your loss, and God rest his soul. My own father took a pair of strokes two years ago, he's doing well, but he's still effectively paralyzed on one side and can't speak properly, but thankfully isn't declining. I realise it can be hard, and I hope all the best for your family. Please take care of yourselves as well.
Sorry to hear that. Living with my old folks as well, it's completely soul-wrenching to see them slowly degrade. My advice, which helped me the most, is to keep your mind grounded at all times. Be aware of your thoughts, and watch for when they veer towards the negative, "future is doom" type stuff. When this happens, you just have to snap yourself out of that mental trap, and place all of your energy towards focusing on the now and practical. Meditation helps with this; all you need to do is close your eyes and focus on nothing but your natural breathing.
I wish you the best of luck, my man. Stories can wait, spend some time with your family <3.