Bereavement · 11:14am Oct 7th, 2021
It's been awhile since I've posted any updates. Things happened one after another to make me lose interest in multicolored ponies. First the show ended, and then real world problems started happening. Then came the worst case scenario – I lost my father in February of this year.
I had already lost grandparents and uncles, but nothing prepared me for the passing of my father. He was always there for me for longer than I could remember, and then suddenly he wasn't.
In the months without my father, I've gradually found myself feeling mostly fine for longer stretches of time. But then I'll see or hear something that reminds me of him, and I'll become upset – sometimes for a few minutes, sometimes for a few days.
When I told people my father passed away, sometimes they asked if we were close. The first time I was surprised, because obviously I had a close relationship my dad. But I understand that there are people who don't have close bonds with their fathers, so I started saying simply, “Yes, he was a good dad.” Probably better than I deserved.
Why did I wait so long to tell you about it here? Well, for a while I didn't want to talk about it to anyone besides my family and close friends. But last week I started reading FiMfiction again for the first time in months, and I felt like those of you who enjoyed reading my fanfics deserved an explanation for my absence. So, here I am.
I've thought about writing a new chapter of “Earth Ponies Are Blessed With Suck” or perhaps a companion piece to “Hoard of Friends,” but it's been hard to find the motivation to write. And the loss of my father has changed my perspective on immortality, so if I do continue either of these stories, they'll likely come out different than I originally planned.
My sincerest condolences. Thanks for coming back even to this degree. Here's hoping the healing process continues.
I'm sorry for your loss. The pain may fade somewhat with time, but the feeling of absence never goes away. Things you used to do together will always have the chance to bring that absence back to the front of your mind, and it's hard to predict when that will happen. All you can do is hold onto the good memories and keep them alive in your heart.
I enjoyed EPABWS, and I'm sure I'd enjoy anything you add to it as well.
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Thank you very much for your condolences. It's been a slow and painful process, but it's been getting a little less hard.
My condolences on the loss of your father, and I’ll pray for you and your family. Losing someone close to you is never easy.
Resume writing when your ready. (I should know, it took 5 years for me to update my story.) Healing is a process, if writing helps then do so. If it hurts to much, take the time you need.
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Thank you. I'm glad to see you're still here too.