Update · 4:18am Sep 21st, 2021
Good morning, comrades.
I apologise for what certainly will be a confusing format. I have never been one to write something of quality as many of you are aware, and so it is very much possible that the entire messaging of this will be muddled. This is more of an update on life for those who are interested, as a few things have happened the past few months which may be of note.
On the twelfth of August, I had to say goodbye to my dearly departed uncle. He unfortunately had very serious complications from Covid, and thus passed away in the hospital. He died alone, our family forbidden from traveling to his local city or to even collect his remains. He was cremated and buried in a state owned cemetery in Byelorussia, something that was against our family's culture and customs. Effectively, my family had been robbed of bereavement and a way to come to terms with the loss. Having not been able to properly say good bye to one of my best friends in life has been very difficult, even not regarding the ongoing political crisis going on at home.
Despite this, I have tried my best to try to keep atop the forces of life and try to continue to improve myself and my perspective. I believe I have been quite successful, but there's only so much I can still do. A lot of my enjoyment with my educational experience and starting in a new city has been soured for me. While I have been the only one in my extended family thus far to try to get a tertiary education, I fail to see the point of it now and have considered new options in life. While I only have one more semester after this, without a sponsor for my given field of study it's notoriously impossible to get a job outside of University, meaning I have nothing to look forward to after graduation.
That being said, I have elected to sign re-enlistment papers for the military and am currently up for review to join the Russian Navy. I am looking for a contract specifically to join the Naval Infantry, and if I obtain said contract, will be starting extensive training next summer. I have been considering re-enlisting since last year, and at this point this is really the only thing I feel comfortable with.
So, what does this mean for my stories?
I am not entirely sure. I have had a few ideas for stories, and have started many projects, but realistically I just don't think I will be able to finish one of the projects I more passionate about given time restrictions with work, classes, and really trying to enjoy life outside and away from a computer screen. I might have one or two last oorahs left to give, but that is no guarantee. Depending on how much I could get written that I would deem as satisfactory enough to post, you might hear from me again.
If not, I wanted to thank those who worked with me and talked with me the past few years. I appreciate the time we spent together. My only regret was that I wasn't any better for all of you.
Take care, comrades.
Take care...
Godspeed you beautiful whore.