Plans I have trouble following · 11:23am Sep 13th, 2020

I am still pretty much alive, but the recent events of my life lead me to make a few adjustments in regards to some things I spoke about in my last blog.

In just a few months it will have been a whole year since I typed down the last words of Aftersound’s epilogue. The thing that saddens me is that, since that moment, I haven’t written much; compared to the amounts I’d been writing before, this year can be considered a complete failure so far.

Partially, mostly, it is my fault as I couldn’t force myself to write as much as I should. Partially it is because this year was shit and the pandemic has nothing to do with it - the problems started before it began and don’t have much to do with it.

If you care, then I quit my job not long after I finished Aftersound, had to work as a courier for a while, earning way too little for my daily suffering of walking fifteen kilometers a day while it was -10°C (14°F) outside. I quit that job and spent a couple of months without money trying to find a new one. When it finally happened, I worked at a petshop for three months; that job sucked as I had to spend twelve hours a day on foot while being nearly constantly harassed by my superiors. As the summer began, I discovered that my fifteen year old cat has gone blind; though somewhat expected, it still hit me hard. Not long after I quit my job at the pet shop; after the pandemic there was a very severe drop in salary - I’d been earning more as a courier and, incredulous as it may sound, it was also a less unpleasant job. After just a few weeks I’d found another job which wasn’t so bad, until I worked for fourteen days without a single day off and was promptly fired thereafter.

Beside all that crap with jobs, which either left me no free time or made me so stressed I simply couldn’t find it in myself to be productive, I also had other issues. My laptop died at the end of February and I had to use a replacement. It served fine for writing, most of the stories I posted this year were typed on it. However, it died in May, leaving me only with my phone for a month and half. Although I tried to use a bluetooth keyboard for that time, I wasn’t able to write anything.

There were also such things as my cat hurting its leg and it being mistakenly diagnosed as cancer, sarcoma of all things. Nothing else was as severe (except for the loss of electricity for a few days with the chance that I would have to pay more than I earn a month to fix it…), but there were countless other problems.

It all resulted in a constant state of stress which wasn’t really motivating, though I am not trying to say that it justifies my unproductivity. As I said, there were also internal factors at fault.

But enough of that. Where do I stand now?

I do have a job now, but the loss of my previous one was a critical setback for my writing in terms of time wasted, meaning that I am very unlikely to post ‘Niello’ this year. I have been working on it a lot, but I still have more to do. The problem is not only in the amount of work I need to do before starting to write and post that story, but the quality I am aiming for - I don’t think I can achieve it yet. The good news is that I am going to practice and that means new stories to read while you wait for Niello (if you care about it at all).

Speaking of the things I am writing next.

I am still working on ‘We Have No Mouths And We Must Confess’, and while I am not making any promises, I hope to post it this year. I am actively working on Aftersound’s sequel - ‘Resonance’; again, no concrete ETA, but this year is within possibility and in my aim. There are a few smaller things I hope to post this year and maybe something big. Keep in mind that while I am by no means abandoning writing pony fanfiction, some of the stuff is going to be non-pony related and posted elsewhere - I’ll keep you updated on that. There are also the ‘re-edits’ of Aftersound - Chapter 2 is being checked out by Jay and IAmApe at the moment.

So, yeah, I am still kicking.

My Discord server. It makes no sense to call it dedicated to Aftersound only, considering that I write stories unrelated to that universe, as well. While it doesn’t have much going on at the moment, I tend to post news on my progress there at a rate more frequent than it happens here. If you are interested in my non-MLP stuff, then you may find it necessary to keep track of my progress.

Thanks for reading.

Stay Awesome,
Oneimare

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