My Mood and Thoughts · 2:59am Aug 7th, 2020
I really don't have a lot to say so I'll keep this brief.
Lately, I've been feeling down and this has been cutting into my writing time. I live with depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder, which means that what I do or don't do depends on my day and mindset. Now, I've never really been a sociable person but I at least went places. With this whole pandemic, I can't really go anywhere, especially given that I have a four-and-half-month-old sister to help take care of, so I have to be extra cautious. I sometimes go for walks to clear my head but even then, that doesn't do a whole lot.
There's a group of friends that I used to hang out with every Saturday but now that's kaput so I'm by myself. For the last few months, I've been unable to work since my job temporarily closed down and most days I'm stuck at home. Writing is one of the few things that I enjoy doing and that I'm good at, not to mention the joy that it fills me with. Mostly I've been coming up with ideas for what to write here and publishing stuff. Wow, I can't believe that I'm up to 175 followers.
That might not seem like a lot but it is to me. I don't write for other people but it's so heartwarming to see people enjoying what I'm putting out. I'm feeling pretty lousy about where I am in life and who I am but you guys are giving me hope. Your favorites, watches and kind words mean more to me than you'll ever know and thank you all for the love and support. Thank you for giving my life meaning in these dark times.
That's a bit much, isn't it?
Whew, I sure hope not. I'm not saying I'm suicidal or anything. In fact, I'm way past that time in my life so please don't get the wrong idea. I'm just dealing with writer's block and a ton of emotional issues and I decided to talk to someone about it-even if it's several anonymous somebodies on a website devoted to fan fiction centered around a kid's show. Heh, I must have something wrong with me after all.
Anyway, I just wanted to talk to you guys and once again thank you for everything. I'm no stranger to fan fiction writing, having posted stories on both DeviantArt and Fanfiction.net way back in the long-forgotten era of 2016 but this is the first fan community that I've ever joined. Again, not much of a social butterfly. Plus I joined this fandom late in the game so I feel a bit behind compared to some of you. However, I'm committed to staying here as long as possible so the rest of you are stuck with me.
In closing, you all have my sincerest gratitude for just being awesome and I wish all of you the best. I'm not sure how far I'll get in my writing, which sucks as I have SO many ideas and concepts floating around in my noggin. I'll try my best to finish what I've started but please be patient with me. There's also my Read Later box, which has more than 2,300 stories in it just waiting to be read so I've got that going on too.
Stay groovy, colts and fillies.
Love,
MisterEdd
I... sincerely, don't know what to say. Being honest with you.
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Too much?
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Maybe it's too much, but that doesn't mean it's bad.
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Oh okay. I was worried I was getting too emotional.
It's good to get things off your chest.
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Thanks
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NP.
It’s alright. Don’t worry, we’re here for you. I understand how you feel. I’d never had a very serious case of depression or writer’s block, mostly because I don’t write, but it’s aright, you’re going to be fine. This fandom is extremely supportive, and you’ll be okay.
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Thanks so much!
Hey man, take a break if you need too. I understand how stressful stuff can be.
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I will. I just want to get my stuff out and give my readers something to enjoy but I think a break here and there is good too.
I hope the pandemic goes away as quickly as possible due to its disrupting everything.
I recently joined the fandom too(like about last year or so just before season 9 started)
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Weird right? You join this massive fandom only to do so just as it ends. I kick myself for not joining earlier, otherwise there are a ton of stories I could've gotten out by now. You and I got a late start but it's nice to be here all the same.
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Hard to believe on what stuff MLP was going through in the background throughout the years while I was in school(ironically, season 8 was around when I was on my last year of high school).
I remember seeing MLP like about 3 years ago in 2016(I think?) when I ended up looking up some stuff I think like about Nightmare Moon or the Changelings. A bit before that someone made a crossover fic I saw.
But 3 years later somewhere in early 2019 I ultimately got into MLP due to reading a Yugioh Zexal/MLP fic I happen to find when I was surfing online.
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I joined in late 2018 and that was only because I decided to check out the Bride of Discord audio drama on a whim and loved it.
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Speaking of Discord, I remember seeing bits of the season 2 premiere even before on 2016.
Like on TV due to DirecTV acting weird and letting me(sadly temporarily, like a month or so) see some channels we didn't had available.
Basically back then when Discovery Family channel was called Hub or something.
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I didn't really watch the series until I got Netflix.
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How much did Netflix cost anyway?
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Depends on what you get. I had standard HD so it was 13 bucks a month
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Hopefully MLP can be watched with just the standard HD thing there.
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I wonder, does Netflix has all of the MLP episodes actually?
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Last I checked, it was up to season 8
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Wonder why it doesn't have season 9 yet?
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Not sure. If it is up, I wouldn't know. I don't have Netflix anymore.
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Rip.
Guess its watching the clips on YouTube then.
Sadly COPPA is causing many of those videos to lose their comment sections.
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Well that's a shame
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What do you think on the whole COPPA issue there?
For me, I hated its shutting off many videos of their comment sections.
Like I really wanted to see what others are thinking on certain clips and such. And even talking to them.
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I'm not a fan. I mean, it's a blatant attack on free speech
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I just hope something is done.
Like really.. YouTube can't remain like this.
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It's been a corrupted husk for years but now it's more like Big Brother
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I just hope something changes soon.
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As do I. There was never much hope. Just a fool's hope.
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At least the videos for the MLP comics are not losing their comments yet, I think..