Random Thoughts #3 - This is Thought Garbage, read with caution · 6:15am May 31st, 2020
I’m upset. About everything. No surprise of course. If you’ve read my stories, you can make a guess at what’s upsetting me. I’ve been trying to put my thoughts to words but I find that I can’t. This upsets me more. I try to practice Stoicism, this awesome philosophy that inspires empathy but reminds its participants that the world is unforgiving and cruel and not let it get to you. But, I suck at it.
I wish Equestria was real. I wish that there really was a portal I can drop into and find some peace. And I hate that I wish it was real. That I can’t confront this reality. I hate the things I love. I don’t want to.
I’ll be okay. I hope I will. In fact, I know I probably will. But, right now, I’m just going through it.
If you’re reading this, thank you. And I’m sorry. I know that you don’t know me nor care to. If you read any of my stories, I appreciate your attention. It’s something I’m clearly lacking. Sorry about that.
I say sorry because I don’t know what else to say. I always feel like my existence always warrants an apology. Saying sorry does nothing, I know this. But...I don’t know.
Blog over. Expect a final chapter soon. Maybe. No, probably.
Hey, take care.
I know that life is complicated and arduous, and can seem stupid in so many ways. I still have little to no clue as to what my life is or where it’s going or what I do right and wrong.
But I stand firm in my belief that your existence is absolutely nothing to apologize for, and it hurts that someone would think that. You’re capable of so much more than you think, affect those around you in ways you likely can’t even comprehend. This is the case for everyone, every soul on this Earth.
I know how you feel in wishing Equestria was real. A pure, utopian world where all are accepted. A place of grand spectacle and opportunity, where anyone can flourish and find happiness. A world where we can start anew and embrace the positives life has to give. And I abhor that we live in a world where it’s not ridiculous to aspire for that.
Just know that though we may be strangers that have never and probably never will meet, and I may seem to be feigning kindness and praise, that I do care and I hope you can realize how special and wanted you are. Please take care and have hope, friend.
Dude, you're writing an odd, flakey, irrepressibly unique story here. It's a story unique to you, because you're the only one who could have written it. So what are you apologizing for? Your essential existence? Life is not in limited supply, there's more than enough for everyone. You are a man of value and potential, who can imagine dreams that none of us could. So never doubt yourself.
Damn all these eloquent commenters, I know Lazy is in my name, but I really wish I had such sincerely heartwarming response to contribute!
In lieu of that though, I just want to say never be sorry about existing! And amen on wishing Equestria was real, I'm fairly certain you are less alone in that aspect as you think. Though I do hope that the equine envy is never strong enough to make you leave us stranded here without you!
Your work has been extremely fun to read through and catch up with, be it a short-silly-oneshot or this recent saga of friendshipping you are wrapping up. It certainly made my life one work of fiction brighter each time, for what that is worth to you
Good luck with finding a way to deal with real life events, I know nowadays it's increasingly difficult to do so without putting on some really strong blinders. Can't help you much on the dealing with it part myself, but if you ever need a friendly pair of blinders to help keep your mind off stuff, I'd be glad to shoot the shit about stuff in the comments or elsewhere. Mostly by way of technology or adorable things, if that's your jam.
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Thanks. You guys really didn’t have to, but thank you all.
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Of course we did, you needed it. And you're welcome.
Life sucks. [ ] And then you die.
You see that? There is a space between. You know why? Because it's meant to be filled by awesome things.
There may not be a peaceful, perfect world to disappear to but you can build your own personal, perfect world.
So go fill that space with amazing things. Fill it with drinks, good foods, friends and fond memories.
Love, peace and chicken grease.
Been there my guy. Message me if you ever wanna chat, We’re going through a lot of the same shit.
All I would like to say to this is : We are all human and that's all that should ever matter.
Please take care and thanks for the stories.
I'm horrible with emotions and am clueless on how to respond so I can only say...
OOF
Whenever I see someone having trouble my thoughts usually go to the words my grandpa pounded into my skull while I worked for him. They were this "dont worry it will get worse". Now before people tear my head off let me explain. when a person knows it'll get worse they can prepare for the inevitable,but! And this is important. If things get better instead then it's a great surprise and you will still be ready for when things get hard. Idk if that helped you but... I hope it will