Admission and memory · 8:59am May 25th, 2020
I'm going to keep suggesting that everyone check out Fallout Dude 50 when I post these style blog stories. His posts inspired these from me, so credit where it's due. Also I'm going to suggest you follow him, his blog stories are better in general, and he's a good guy. Go ahead.
Just taking a minute to write out a piece of a counseling session between Starlight and Rainbow Dash.
I think the hardest part of this for you is that you've been trying to suppress these feelings. When did you first realize that you wanted something more than friendship from James?
*Rubs the back of her head and sighs* It was when we were locked in that chamber Washu made to help James lose weight. Don't tell anypony, but I may have lost my cool a couple times. On the really bad times, he'd just hold me and promise that I'd get out safe. Ugh. That sounds pathetic.
Anypony can panic when they're trapped. Especially since both of you could have starved to death. I know that I'd really freak out.
Heh. Yeah. It was just the two of us living together in there for almost a month. He had his problems in there too, you know, the memories. But it wasn't all bad, I actually kinda liked the idea of us being together near the end. And in there, it didn't matter how cool or pathetic we were: we were us. And then it didn't change when we left. Like, whenever we were together it was just us again. *Groans* But then I had to go and tell myself what I was feeling was wrong. That it was just because we were stuck together for so long. I felt it every time he was around, but I had to keep telling myself to stop.
But you kept visiting him. Kept getting your massages from him. You had to justify that to yourself somehow.
Yeah, I told myself it was okay because we did it during the prank. It was no big deal because he was just a friend. That I was only going for the free massage, not because of what I felt when I was with him. That's why I wanted everypony to get massages from him too. So I could tell myself that it was normal. That I was normal.
Why wouldn't you be normal?
Hello? He's an alien from another reality. How could I feel like that about something I'd never even seen before? Oh and let's not forget, he's married!
To four women. And long before any of us met him.
Yeah, Lucca and Tali make it work, but Tenyo and Liara were political and barely consider themselves married to him. Besides they're all serious eggheads, like professional eggheads. Where would I even fit in?
Looks like you fit in pretty well to me.
Yeah, I do. I also told myself there was no way he'd feel the same way about me. Again, he's an alien. What would he even like?
So you just assumed, and held yourself back for years. Just hoping to stop feeling that way?
*Nods*
I see. ... Rainbow Dash. I promise you that nothing you felt was wrong. And if you'll let me, I think we can discover things about you that will make you much happier.
Very nice