A big dent in my self-confidence when I was already sad, including after the events of a previous blog, but I tried to cheer myself up. Went to my favourite place to go and bought this beauty... (You'll love it) · 5:27pm Mar 3rd, 2020
After the events of my blog a few posts back, I was still sad and having trouble cheering myself up. I had to go shopping today to prepare for tomorrow, but I became disheartened when I saw myself the mirror when I went to try some trousers I needed on in the dressing room. I'm nowhere near as fat as I used to be, that's for sure, but I have been self-conscious about my appearance since I lost most of my confidence and my pride.
I've always felt incredibly hideous, as low self-esteem-ish that sounds. I look like shit, to be blunt. My hair is always long and bedraggled, even though I've showered the previous night and combed it in the morning, wearing a pair of glasses makes me feel worse than I already do, and having the face my genes gave me makes me feel what I like to call 'ugged up'. So, I took my glasses off and I put up my hood, same as I always do when I leave the house.
I was thinking about where to go next after leaving the shop, and the guitar shop I frequently visit was on the other side of the shopping centre. I figured I'd go in and spend some time in there for the sake of my love of instruments.
I walked in and I mentioned I was browsing, looking for a guitar I'd like to add to my collection in the future. I then asked if there was a Gibson SG, then the owner said, ''I've got something even better than that. I've got an SG from this year.'' So we went upstairs and he presented it to me...
Holy hell, it's a beauty, isn't it? I wasn't going to buy anything today because I needed my money for other things, including to pay for a car. We had a long conversation about our favourite styles of music, personal interests, etc while I was thinking it over. Rather than run the risk of going insane and agonising about it, knowing I'd be scratching at my eyeballs all night if I left it, I ended up with it. He was even nice enough to do me a deal on it and throw in a case for free.
Make that eleven guitars in my collection. Ho-ho-ho. I'm sure it'll see some extensive use in the future. Next up, I'll be looking into buying amps; about time I found a new, bigger and better one to replace my ID Core. I'll need to learn how to control myself in the future. It ain't a cheap hobby, not at all.
Regardless, it made me happy. It's my first Epiphone, a difference from all the Fenders I've played. It distracted me from feeling ugged up, too. It makes me smile to hold it and play it. Welcome to the family, SG, you beauty. 
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You forming a band? I can do vocals!
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At some point, I will be!
First, I've got to start helping build an extension on my old room at home so I can move back in a build my own music battle station, giving me a place to record my original music. I'll likely spend the majority of my time setting it up and organising it this year. I'd seriously love to have a band once I make some demos, and then we'll see, man. 💛
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Of course, it may be a fair drive for me to where you are. I believe you're in either Yorkshire or Teesdale?
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East Riding of Yorkshire area, Humberside. Where the weather is always terrible and unpredictable, but that might just be England as a whole, right?
I'm not used to meeting Brits on here. I mostly assume everyone I meet is American or from some other country other than the UK.
You are literally the coolest guy I know
Also, the pug pillow in the background is so cute
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Midlander. My dad's from the West Riding, though.
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I ain't cool, I'm just a guitarist and music lover. Thanks, though. 💛
I think the pug cushion belongs to either my step-mum or my little brother.
Nice looking guitar