Apologies · 4:14am Jan 21st, 2020
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for upsetting you, yes you the person reading this right now, in whatever shape or form I have upset you in. I'm sorry for my transgressions. I'm sorry for frustrating you, for causing you pain or creating issue with you, for whatever reason I have caused you to be upset, I am sorry. Past, present or future, I'm sorry.
What the hell am I even apologizing for, right? I've been thinking about doing this for a long time, actually. Now seemed to be a good time.
Look, I know the kind of person I am. I try my best to be a good person, sometimes it's good enough and sometimes it isn't. I fail to meet my own expectations at times. And I'm trying to improve. A lot of people are, I'm just one of them. So this is a sincere apology for the future because I'm probably going to piss you off at some point. But I'll get through it and you can, too.
I'm not posting this to absolve me of any future mistakes or problems I cause, and I'll probably be involved with more than a few. This is just a precaution for those who even bother reading it, who for whatever reason have decided to view my work. Nothing I say or do or write here is meant to hurt, harm or otherwise damage anyone in any way. What I do here, what I write here, is for me and me alone and the few fans who happen to be like me.
As I have stated before, regardless of my views and opinions, my works here are free use. You are free to use them, to create with them, to have fun and indulge in, add your characters and settings and ideas to as much as you want. I've added original characters into my stories and you are free to join your own, or not. I only ask that if you do use my ideas, you give me a little credit for them, a mentioning is all I request. Of course, plagiarism is still wrong and not something I condone, but in the spirit of sharing ideas, I share mine with you.
That's the kind of creator I want to see more of- creators who share. So I'm trying to be the change I want to see. I've created the world of Dan Vs. The Magic of Friendship and I built it mostly for you guys. My only regret is that I'm not a better author, more organized or consistent with anything except a weekly update. It's been going on for years with weekly updates and the only thing that can really be said is that it has weekly updates. I'm not in a position where I can do more, unfortunately. But the show must go on.
Said show does thankfully have a few good twists still to come and some laughs every now and then, so there's at least some redeeming quality, I believe.
I think I have improved a bit. Sure, I get political and biased now and then, that's something I need to work on. And I'm sorry if my views and these blogs have become annoying or something. I used to think that people followed me because they want more of my writing and I'm willing to be that's true in a few cases. On that front, I'm also sorry I haven't been able to update my other stories.
Losing my father was a major blow to me. It's one of the main reasons I haven't updated my Orville crossover, because that was one of the last shows we watched together regularly. It's difficult. I inherited a lot of his loves. Not all of them, but a lot of them. I find it strange that I don't seem to be as sad as I thought I would be about losing my father. It was a loss, a great pain but not as bad as I thought it would be. That thought alone is somewhat scary. Am I suppressing some emotion of some kind? Is there some part of me that is as of yet unable to move on?
Also, living with my mother and stepfather again has become taxing in every last essence of the word. They are not functional people, they can be extremely judgmental, hypocritical and self-destructive. They are also prone to impulse, overreaction, mood-swings and have been cruel, spiteful and deceitful in the past. They are also my only remaining immediate family and I love them very, very much. I don't claim to be a saint either; I had a choice of keeping my property or selling it and moving in with my mother and I chose the latter out of prudence.
Being alone, one man managing a whole house, sizable property by yourself? It's not practical. Humans are social creatures and it's just not in our nature to be alone. Not only that, a single income would not be able to sustain the property, which was also in dire need of repair from hurricane damage. So I sold what amounts to my entire past, leaving behind photos and memories and antiques, because life is what matters most. The future is what matters, not trinkets collecting dust. I took my laptop and belongings- vidya games, books, movies, few mementos and sold the rest.
I did fulfill my lifelong dream of going on a cruise. Even made a blog about that and updated my story, too. Cruise ship gets crappy wifi, but it was good enough for me.
In conclusion, I don't know why you're following me, but I do appreciate it, even if you don't agree with everything I say. You're welcome here and you're free to read my works and add my characters. Occasionally, I do have to remove comments or delete and block people, but that's life. Even if I accidentally block you or something, you are still free to read and enjoy my work, add your own ideas to it or characters. MLP and Dan aren't mine anyway but Vice Grip and his Magic Gears certainly are.
Also, Vice AND the Magic Gears, along with my other designs, were meant to be made into good toys, if that's ever a possibility. The Magic Gear would basically be your own Sweetie Bot, and I think there's more than a few people who might like that. Side note: none of my designs will have working weapons if physical versions are produced. But hey, if you can get a plushie made of your OC, why not a robot?
So I'm saving up money to start that project and bring some of my ideas to life, as well as get Dan Vs. The Magic of Friendship animated in some form. I am who I am, flaws, strengths, hopes and dreams combined, as is everyone else. I'm just a bit louder and more obnoxious than most, so I tend to draw more attention, more heat and more flak, so these are some preemptive apologies.
Eh, there's no need to get too hung up on things. I certainly don't.
People have their ups and downs, their differences in moods. Sometimes you're happy and can keep that up through anything, sometimes you're calm and can weather the storm no matter what BS people send at you. Sometimes, though, you're already angry about something, or even just a little annoyed, and someone pushing your buttons gets a reaction. Sometimes you might be sad, which can turn into anger if people rub the wrong way. It happens, no matter how much you may want to bottle it up and keep calm and so on and so forth, sometimes you just need to vent.
Needing to vent or otherwise act on your emotions doesn't make you a bad person. Hell, the fact that you're making a public apology for seeming no reason shows you aren't a bad person.
Personally, I don't hold grudges against people, I find it hard to do so even if really angry at someone for something or other. So no matter what you may have done, are doing, or will do, I forgive you.
I would hope that you would forgive me for anything I may do or say to you. Arguments happen, it's a fact of life, even with family or loved ones. It happens. We just can't let that ruin what friendships or relationships we may have :3
Very sorry to hear about the house, I keep thinking just how much it would actually cost to build something hurricane proof, given it would be a fibre waste reinforced cement filled inflatable castle.
And because Im tired, it took me a few minutes to realise that solving teh heating problem made me confuse my words so I ended up with Nuclear Hypocaust, or a way of using waste that way also.
And then it took me a few more minutes before I realised certain words.
If correctly designed, installed and maintained.
The Man In the White Suit, meets Flim and Flam.
As for family arguments. Know that also, Been there, done that, eaten the carpet. Was esrtanged for a few years but at least back on talking and meeting terms, just prefer to get money before visiting again. Its a bit isolated.
Just write for yourself, how many lost manuscripts have been discovered over the centuaries before ease of distribution and access became commonplace, no matter how much effort is being applied to reinstate limitations again?
I just hope you aint on the west coast, Sacramento is looking more terrifying every year. Wish you best of luck with weather, travel and destinations.
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Admitting you were wrong is hard, apologizing is harder and forgiving is the hardest. That includes both forgiving other people and forgiving yourself. I don't hold grudges either, but I can understand people who do. Especially on the internet. Our attention is valuable here and so is our time, effort and energy. Some people like to cause trouble but I feel like the vast majority aren't interested, which I think constitutes a lot of people on this website. We're here to read, write and pony so there's not much time to deal with drama. Again, most of us.
But as I said, this is a precautionary post and one I hope people in the future who follow and view my work read and understand. I don't do what I do to try to hurt anyone, even if I have something to prove now and then. And everyone is welcome to join this world, these worlds I've created. I'm not going to attack or divide my fans, however many I have.
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Nah I'm in beautiful Florida. Not to get political, but our current elected leaders, both local, state and federal, have all been really good for this state. Local businesses are flourishing, great place to start your own business. But you have to be committed and stay here, source, supply, base and hire locally. Not the best place if you're relying on government aid but that's everywhere. Yes, craziness does make our headlines but that's mostly because our journalists are absolutely fierce and hungry for stories, for better and worse.
Everybody talks about Florida Man stories because they hear about them from our reporters. Nobody hears or reads about Virginia Man, New Mexico Man or Colorado Man when they go missing and don't show up. Sure, a man tries to set his girlfriend on fire at the Taco Bell and it makes headlines, but kids vanishing in the hills? Back page news.
Rest assured that I value you very much, both of you, as fans. I didn't forget about the SHED or Lightning Claw. The SHED is still in an unpublished chapter that I've been trying to work on for a while now, it's still not ready.