The Quickening: The new decade · 2:04am Sep 4th, 2019
I'll have an eye surgery in a few days, so I won't be available for a week at least. Wish me luck.
EDIT: It's time fot my surgery. See you soon, wish me luck.
OOH BOY, what a mad decade, we're now near to enter the final boss of this decade so cursed.
We started well, a way to restart, but everything was a farce and we returned to the 80's but with worse contexts... And a whole of Internet.
Internet, what a curious tool to communicate. Its creation was to be able to communicate military in the cold war in the U.S. army, but now it's another way of saying "T.V" unless now the viewer always interacts directly.
Twitter, Reddit, 4chan, Tumblr, Facebook, Instagram among others are things that I personally consider a poison. I'll throw the obvious, that if it's full of crappy nerds, that if they're the #1 enemy, that if this or the other and etc. The golden age of kittens saw funny gifs, funny falls and lie to the Scientology church is gone and now we have a tool that has been used for malefic purposes that I hope will be forgotten forever soon. From forums that began to discuss absolutely anything to hives of neo-Nazis, young and resentful adults, dangerous otakus, groups of the worst fans and furries.
I'm currently going to take a different direction in my life because I want to forget all this horrible shit that I have seen in the years. The worst scum I've seen on the Internet have been otakus and weebs that ruin the fun, "porn entusiasts", shitposters, the infamous "fun police" among other things. I say it from personal experience and I suggest that people who suffer from anxiety or panic attacks, don't get into this, what these networks do is worsen your mental health. No one is saved from mental ills. It had a very ugly effect on my psyche, I spent hours and hours looking for “that image” that you liked and you can't find it and you think that bad things will happen if you can't find it.
In addition to this apparent internet addiction, ugly things were happening, I was increasingly disappointed because many of the people I meet are really disgusting and nasty people. From the classic misoginerd that dedicates PAGES of how feminazis are killing a certain medium and how that's a first world problem. The "f" word is not perfect, I know, but you either choose to be rational and direct or you do it to feed a much more harmful agenda than you criticize, even people in their 20's or 30's who continue to behave as children of 15, who have such an arrogant attitude that you want to slap them to show them their stupid worldviews, that their ways of seeing other human beings are dangerous and can lead them to jail, that they can have a humble attitude... but it's useless because there's a black barrier between you and that person and it's even sadder because those people (this is something I thought the net) have the talent... And they are not people of high caliber as artists but simple fans, who create really unpleasant things and impose their visions at work even if it implies harassment of the creator in question but at least this is arranged with doing as if such "fans" did not exist.
I understand everyone but the most annoying minorities are the loudest.
I'm someone who genuinely values what is given. I grew up in a volatile family in an already very volatile state in a volatile country. I haven't gone hungry or thirsty but I have witnessed these shortcomings and believe me, it's depressing.
I appreciate what I am given, even this translates into my likes.
This is something that should not be seen as rare in my opinion, it's fascinating that we are very passionate about something and even create a space in our memories to remember them until death tells us it's time to leave, but at the same time you have to respect these things and give them a break from time to time. How fascinating is the human mind! I know they aren't perfect things and it's worth discussing them but the problem is the Internet is and constructivity is not welcome.
Perhaps we are the last to be constructive.
There are a thousand and one things that degraded my mind in my time, but I'm already preparing to revive a part of me that I miss. You don't necessarily have to kill things of yours to change you can relive what you like most.
From very young we are asked to be constructive, but the internet is there, I think you have to look for different hobbies, I think you have to be simpler and more direct without being visceral, I think you have to learn to let things go and keep the good ones memories.
I realized that real life is better, because it's heavy but at least you can express your feelings and you can hug people.
Who knows, maybe in 30 years we will look back and see how absurd everything was and at least we can continue enjoying what we like the most. Maybe we will see Internet dramas as a simple reflection of the culture of the time and that it's better to forget them, that the pedantic ones of the networks will die as we all do and life goes on. Perhaps you have to think that the most despicable people may mature or not ... We must see what happens in 30 years, mark my words.
My relatives invite me this Christmas with my cousins ... But then I remember my older friends in my days and they have marked a lot who I am and I miss them... I think I'll play with them, see what happens... They don't deserve to make their lives bitter as early as I do, they deserve good memories. Nice memories like me playing with them or my trips to other places and the people I saw there and may never see again. I think it's time to travel back in time. Maybe I will meet a younger self and tell him that he will never be alone and there will always be super cool people who will be there... Who knows, but I'm already with everything to take the next step in my life. Where do I leave my games and comics by the way?
Reading through that image was a journey in and of itself. Wow.
Shouldn’t FIM be in 2010 XD