I think negativity drives people away.

I'm kind of afraid to talk to a friend when I feel down, I know I've done it multiple times in the past and most of them pretty much ghosted me(Stopped replying to my msgs, txts, calls). I feel like to keep any type of relationship, I feel I have to bottle it in or try to forget about it. It just feels like the right thing to do if you want to be able to hang out with that certain friend as long as you can. I get that people don't have time to deal with negativity. Why is it that some people will instead ditch you or avoid you instead of giving you comfort and making sure that you'll be alright? It's just kind of messed up. It's like you really can't be yourself around your friends in the first place.

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[Final fantasy forever]

That isn't write, people should like you for who you are, and stick by you, with all your flaws and quirks

[Fireheart 1945]

It's hard for me to make friends; I'm afraid to initiate conversations, and I'm always waiting for the other person to make the first move or say or ask the first thing.

That said, it's not impossible. Occasionally, I have to step out of my comfort zone. It's uncomfortable, but it can be worth it.

As for talking to people when feeling down... it's better to try and overcome what's telling you to keep it bottled up, or else it chains you down and explodes in some way, shape, or form, and will continue to impact your life in a negative way. Talking to people about it is better. And not everyone is going to ditch you for telling them about bad stuff. You have to get this out somehow.

If you don't feel like talking to someone, might I suggest just talking about it anyway (to a deity, to yourself, to an oc you made, etc.)?