Depression and lack of inspiration · 6:09pm Jul 18th, 2019
Well shit here we go again. Maybe i really should go see a shrink. Cause what I've been doing hasn't been working. But then again? What good is talking to a doctor going to do? They can listen. But all they'll do to "help" is tell you shit you already know or put you on drugs. I don't want either of those and I'm cool smoking pot. Though the fact still remains? I suffer because of my depression. My writing suffers. My Youtube channel suffers. My mood suffers.
I just don't know how to continue to deal with it when it's obvious I'm doing all this alone and no one seems to really wanna lift a finger to help me and the ones that who have their own stuff going on and I don't wanna be a burden on people. With MLP coming to an end and EG just not being as good as it used to be as a whole(Except Sunset of course) I just haven't been truly happy in a good while and it sucks. I've been trying to be and trying to engage with people but its been few and far between and typically never seems to go the way I want or how I feel it should. Something always goes wrong and I am left to pick the pieces up on my own.
I have no job, barely any friends, i live alone, good chunk of my family hates me because I won't bend my knee to them and I just don't know about anything anymore. Not suicidal or anything so do not mistake me(Even though I've tried taking my life in the past and others have tried to do it for me) I WANT TO LIVE. But living the way I am right now isn't really what I would call living.
What this is? Is a form of Hell no one should have to endure. But I have no choice if I want to see a better tomorrow.
Rant over. I just needed to air my mind and get some shit off my chest. Respond if you want. Or don't. I guess it doesn't really matter.
Um am sorry your in such a dark place. It sucks and can make the world look like a horrible place. Honestly yeah I do think you should try seeing a professional, they can actualy help, it’s happened to me a few times in the past for me and the guy helped me out my head on straight and get out of that dark place. Am just saying it could help, exercise or just going outside for a walk can help clear your head. Am not really sure what to say or advise about the other stuff other than don’t give up on people, a lot of them can really suck this is true but not everyone is aweful and people and life are just complicated. Yeah don’t really know how to end this, so maybe just take a step back and try to find yourself and your passion or just find what you enjoy again or why you enjoyed it. That’s the best I got
Also I think it does matter especially to you.
Sorry to hear that if it helps I’ve always supported you in spirit and hope you get a better future soon.
Also don’t give up on what made you happy before and if you want friends you could always make friends of the other writers on this site like Carmine prophet, valiant charge, MKchief34 and others who still write. You could also make a discord to talk with your friends I find discord to be a good option for how to speak with friends. And finally “DONT STOP BELIEVING HOLD ON TO THAT FEELING!!!!!!!”
As other note I just got out of school or college whichever it was and will be going to blueberry academy in September so I’m going some experience that you are but not a lot and I’ve got a caring family by my side so don’t give up on people close to you is what I’m saying.
As a word to the followers here.... WHAT ARE YOU ALL DOING THE PERSON YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO SUPPORT IS IN A BAD STATE AND ALL ONE HUNDRED AND FITHTY TWO OF YOU ARE DOING NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Uh you guys suck and go to hell every last one hundred and fivity two of you!
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I apperciate your concern. Some days are just harder than others and then it's like whenever I post a story? I hope for people to comment and tell me what they like or even what they didn't like but it just feels like people read it and then move on which is discouraging. It's the same with my youtube channel which makes it hard to find motive to post content you know?
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Yeah I hear you just don’t let that stop what you love doing the most and if it helps try focusing on one story at a time and on so many at once that you don’t burn out your brain so quick and you should take my advice about making friends with the other writers here on FIMfiction like Carmine prophet or MKcehif34.