Creativity problems · 10:37pm Jan 29th, 2019
Recently, I have found it difficult to write and generally concentrate on work. I would often spend a lot of time browsing through my games and not finding anything to play. At the same time, I want to write but can't really force myself to sit down and go with it. Don't get me wrong, I can and will write for as long as I'm mentally and physically able to. I love writing. I think it's one of my biggest passions in life. But... something is missing.
Maybe it's the mood. Do any of you have any orchestral music? Preferably no quick songs and definitely no songs written in major. I love dark songs, they give me just the right mood. Even better if there are no singers, only instruments. And if the song is longer than ten minutes, it's even better.
Though, I feel it's not just the mood. No idea what it could else be, to be honest. If any of you have some advice, I'll appreciate it.
Also, on a side but somewhat relevant note, I still haven't gotten a girlfriend. It would massively help me if I had one, but the problems are... There are two main problems. The first one is crappy girls around the area. The second is myself.
Going deeper into the second problem, I should say that I have no idea how to talk with girls that I want to date. I mean, I can just be honest and speak things directly and clearly, but that's kinda... awkward. Then, I'm not sure girls would even like me. At least, not the kind of girls I want. I'm not aiming for the top or anything, but there are still issues.
I guess I feel a bit emotionally starved. I don't think I've felt any strong emotion for a long while now. I have thoughts, I have fears, I have dislikes, but... I've neither genuinely laughed nor cried in a very long time. I'm sure I can still feel emotions, but it all feels... Dull? Maybe lifeless? Generic? I can't explain it. I need to feel something more. Not artificially via drugs and whatnot, that won't work and never works.
As I said, a loving partner would help a lot, but... I have no idea how or when I would get one. Other people make it look easy, and it is indeed easy for them. Me? I'm not sure.
I want to be a good person. As good as my own morals tell me, I suppose. And I definitely want to be good for my partner.
And yet, I'm not sure. Nothing is certain.
Look up Adrian von Zeigler for a few like Requiem for the nameless dead or Two steps from hell. Otherwise music videos help a lot.
well i suggest just getting out and doing something different away from the house/apartment or where ever ya live and just do something you don't normally do but still like enough to do it. Typically works most of the time for me.
try something different than your usual,out of your comfort zone or something you didnt knew like traveling or a sport or a new hbby etc.
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Easy to say, difficult to do. All things require money, and I don't earn that much even through Patreon.
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Just as dangerous as it sounds - you can try to help some ..one, and see now this develop?
I've felt like this sometimes, the things you loved doing g or did for fun now seem duller. What I find helps out is to put down what ever your trying to do and find something out of the ordinary that you can work on. I think it happens because we get bored of our routines but idk honestly, doing something different for alittle while usually gets me back in the mood to do things.