Moving Mare Musing · 12:00pm Jan 18th, 2019
I've been exceedingly busy with moving, as I'm sure you've noticed.
Or perhaps not. I've not been terribly productive of late on this site. Like I said, I've been busy. If it's not wind storms it's power outages, if it's not that it's realizing we don't have any condiments, upon realizing we don't have X or we don't have Y. We're missing toilet paper or paper towels, or it's to bright in this room or it's too dark over here and by the time I finish one task a new one appears for me to tackle.
I went back to my old apartment to pick up so 'misplaced' odds and ends. I dropped off my old keys. I won't be back there. In doing so, I suppose this is the next chapter in my life. Didn't expect it to come so swiftly as it did. Couldn't even see it coming. That's the way things go, right? Suddenly I'm in a new place with new rules and new surroundings. New people and new chances.
It's all so very overwhelming, and at the end of the day I'm afraid to let myself be happy. It doesn't need to stay like this. Theres no guarantee things will remain up and I'm expecting the other horseshoe to drop at any moment.
Today, I visited nurse Red-Heart. I haven't talked to her in years for varying reasons. She informs me I'm rather healthy for not visiting and they won't have to hospitalize me. Again. Hahaha, isn't that just dandy? I'm always extra tickled when I hear that particular bit of news. BIood pressure is down. Deficiencies are being managed. Stress levels have marginally decreased it seems. No more tension headaches seems to be a thing. I suppose my life style changes are already starting to pay off. I suppose I should keep at them.
I suppose.
Still can't sleep through. Naturally. Even though I particularly adore my new set up. My bed is set up in the corner, A cozy little corner surrounded by pillows and comfy blankets. My raining lights are behind me now, so while I can't see them, the motions they make leave pleasant glows on the walls around me, bringing to mind real rain. My window is on my left. Poor sealing in this one, so cold air actually seeps into my room, but it always smells like outside and petrichor. Or, also, just mud. Still, though, this is quite a cozy little spot as long as I'm under the covers. It's very warm here. I even have a real bed now, and no longer just some cobbled together mattresses and cushions.
It's nice.
I'm so happy for you, Rarity! It's always a bit overwhelming when one moves and it seems that there is so much to be done and arrange to suit your taste. But just as change is inevitable, it usually helps you, as it has with you. You're feeling better and you're healthy. Perhaps the insomnia will ease as well.
It's natural that you might feel apprehensive about such positive changes (I feel that at times, too, especially lately) but remember that you've worked hard to get to this new place and have new opportunities. You deserve to be proud of yourself, darling. You are on a new path and you're doing great.
*hugs*