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Pixel_Spark


A pegasister taking a break right now! The rambling of the banana butterfly will return...dun dun dun!

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Sep
2nd
2018

I’m so sorry. · 6:29pm September 2nd

I apologise that I must put cancel/everything on hiatus for the indeterminate future. FDTL and CatK...

I’m in the process of losing my job, being told to resign because yet another company can’t handle an autistic person. I can’t do it again, can’t trust a world that’s this fucking hypocritical.

I have next to no hope for a future in work, and I think something fundamental has broken after all these years of blind faith.

Statistics show barely 25% of adults in the UK with disabilities like mine will ever keep a job. I fought all my life to try break that mould, but in the end I’m in the 75% it seems. I refused to become a benefits leech but every damn effort I made to do honest work has only ever caused misery and ended with my leaving.

I’m sorry, I really am. Right now... I just don’t know and I refuse to hope, for what has that ever done for me?

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Comments ( 7 )

To refuse hope is to refuse to live. Hope doesn't always give back, but when it does, it makes things much sweeter. I'm autistic, pessimistic, and I'm fearful of the future as well. We keep trying because it inspires others to as well. To give up is to prove them right.

You aren't alone. Never forget that.

Never give up hope (hugs) remember to be strong, like Sombra!!! You can do it! we are all cheering for you!!! :pinkiehappy::heart:

I’m very sorry to hear this, but I hope you the best of luck, and please, stay safe.

i'm sorry and i simpothise you see i am much the same as you i have cerebral palsy and i spent years trying to prove the system wrong that someone like me could make an honest living but it was not to be they say i'm a medical risk and can't afford to take the chance but you mustn't give up keep up hope for no matter what keep going never give up and though what they say hurts you are special and no one can take that away from you not now not ever

I am very sorry to hear that. While I cannot give anything materially, I hope you may accept my prayers. I have also been meaning to tell you that you are a great author and though this world is harsh at times, that doesn't make you any less beautiful or uniquely you. I believe you will find what is right for you. And while you search, stay safe.

I am truly sorry to hear about your situation but please don't give up on hope. Sometimes it is the only thing that will keep you going. As long as there is life there is hope. It is always darkest before the dawn. Don't give up, do not let the world win. it is not worth giving it the satisfaction.

We are behind you.

Hey Pixel_Spark. I've been away from FIMfiction for awhile and just now saw your update post on what your current situation is.

I am truly sorry for your unfortunate bout of circumstances that you are dealing with. My baby sister falls somewhere on the autistic spectrum and it has been so frustrating for her to do things herself. Others think that because she's 'not like everyone else' means she has to be babied or that she can't do the same work that others can do. I have had to watch for my whole so far as my sister claws and fights her way up to a position where people can stop judging her. My sister is one of the kindest, and most hard working individuals I know.

Even though it isn't right, I actually hold a grudge or two against some individuals that have treated her like crap and to be honest? It will be a long, long time before I can fully forgive them...

I may not understand what its like to have autistic tendencies of any sort, but I have my sister and I'm very protective of her. Just know, that if you need someone to talk to and vent to, I would be happy to lend a listening ear my friend. No one deserves to be treated like dirt and stepped on.

Don't lose hope my friend. Stay strong and hold on to hope. Without hope, all of the horrible stuff that exists in this world can consume you more easily.

"Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all of the darkness."
- Desmond Tutu, South African civil rights activist

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