Post Con Report · 4:54am Aug 1st, 2018
Another year, another Bronycon. I'm not sure anyone reads these, considering how long since I've updated, but here goes.
I'd like to start with an apology, not just for now posting any stories, but for how I may have acted at the Con. I spent most of the weekend in a daze of exhaustion and hunger, having gotten a total of 8 hour sleep the entire weekend, and burning way too much energy. On the good hand, I finally managed to get my family to attend. My nieces and my mom had a good time, and even my brother who never cared much for the Brony thing, started to finally come around and see the appeal. I finally got to share something i truely love with my family.
On the other hand, I was worn out, and distracted by playing tour guide. Some of my friends and fans tried to talk to me, and I barely paid attention. My brain was not all there, and if i offended anyone, I am deeply sorry. I didn't get to hang out with the friends I have come to know, nor did I attend any of the events. Currently I am physically and emotionally wrecked, and the news at the end of the Con didn't help any. Every time I tried to hang out and relax, I was either too tired, or had to run off to attend to my family. Again, I am sorry.
I did have some good moments, however. I got to attend the writer dinner, and the party Saturday night. I had several people track me down about the Writer flags I gave out last year, and that really made me feel good. All told, it was a bit bittersweet, and I'm gonna take some time to get my shit together, but I will survive like always.
And then there was the announcement. I tried (and failed) to head home early in an attempt to go to work Sunday night, since they refused to give me the time off, and I get hit with an extra point after 3 days calling out. I passed out until evening, and awoke to hear the news that next year will be the last time I get to see many of the people I have come to know as friends. It will be the last time I am in that place I finally found I can be myself, and feel accepted. It's the one thing that keeps me going when my life goes to shit. And soon it will be gone.
I love you guys, and I love this fandom. Both have been there for me in ways even my family will never understand. So now I have spent the last two days trying not to break down and cry, or fall off the cliff of depression, as I struggle to get my shit together and move on. For the first time in a very long time, I feel truly lonely. Let me tell you, as an antisocial loner, it feels strange.
I'll try to get some writing done, but I dunno when I will post it. Thanks to all of you for being so patient. And with that, I would like to leave you with the song that's been in my head since Sunday...
Drax, you're a fixture for me at the con. I'm glad we got to hang out, play cards, and watch a bunch of anthropomorphic cartoon horses play soccer against a team of Hitler clones on a 100" plasma TV while getting shitfaced on my arsenal of alcohol.
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Cheers, Horsefuckers!
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It sounds like at least some fun was had. And that's what's important right? I've never been to one.
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Start making plans. 2019 might very well be the last big one. Lemme know if you need any help.
Ya, those were good times. Drunken shenanigans ftw!
Drax99, Man it's been forever since you've updated your blog, or your stories, but I understand all too well how life just seems to get in the way. It does suck about Bronycon, and in truth I've never gotten to attend. I wish that I would have, but finances and life always seemed to be constantly the reasons I couldn't. Regardless I have gotten to go the virtual con aka PonyFest. I know that they're still having it occasionally, and it does help to go to these virtual cons aka meetups and just be around other fans. Maybe you should see if that's an option, and maybe, just maybe you might even run into some of your friends that you've made there.
Regardless, in the words of Master Splinter, "Some say that the path from inner turmoil begins with a friendly ear. My ear is open if you care to use it."