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Abecedarian


"Her crews are babes or madmen? Her port is all to make? You're manned by Truth and Science, and you steam for steaming's sake?" - Rudyard Kipling "The Three-Decker"

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  • 79 weeks
    That should do it.

    I had three stories on the 30-minute pony site which were never published here. They are now.

    In 2015, many of the projects I had been halfheartedly working on since I got into ponies in 2011 and should have finished by then died when my computer did.

    A couple years ago, I found an old flash drive which had copies of some of the stories on it.

    What does that mean? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN!?

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  • 79 weeks
    Health Update Update

    Looks like the Big Brain BBQ is being postponed until they see how well Lorlatinib deals with the unwelcome guests in my skull.

    I've been taking it a little over a week and I think I've noticed an improvement. I know I feel physically better than I did on my old drug, and my mind's been feeling a little clearer, too.

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  • 81 weeks
    Health Update

    So after almost five years of living with cancer, I got told on Sep. 29th that there was a spot on one of my MRIs which was 'probably nothing'. Then they told me I had three tumors on my brain and said zapping them individually would be easy.

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  • 251 weeks
    Good news, I'm alive!

    So, at the time of my last blog I not only had cancer, but I was also suffering from pneumonia. This was the week after my first hospital visit, where they basically did a bunch of tests and gave me risky heart surgery because there was a sac full of fluid crushing it.

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  • 323 weeks
    So, it's been a few years...

    Anything new with you?

    Me, i'm dying.

    Long story short I went to the doctor for what I thought was sciatica and turned out to be stage 4 lung cancer that had metastasized throughout my whole body and reached my back. I never smoked. I never hung out around smokers. It's just one of those things.

    I've got 3-6 months left, apparently, though I plan to fight for more.

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Feb
26th
2018

So, it's been a few years... · 4:07am Feb 26th, 2018

Anything new with you?

Me, i'm dying.

Long story short I went to the doctor for what I thought was sciatica and turned out to be stage 4 lung cancer that had metastasized throughout my whole body and reached my back. I never smoked. I never hung out around smokers. It's just one of those things.

I've got 3-6 months left, apparently, though I plan to fight for more.

Does anyone remember me? Will anyone remember me?

For a few years, a few years ago, the stories on this site provided me with joy and entertainment.

Please continue doing so.

I gave up on writing and all I can do is tell you not to do the same.

Goodbye.

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Comments ( 2 )

I'm sorry. I genuinely wish I knew what to say, seeing something so heartbreaking.
So I'll say... fight on. Don't waste the time you have left.

I do remember you, though we may not have corresponded more than a time or two. There's not much one can say to such a thing other than stay strong and fight it, make your peace where and how you will. I'm not sure how you respond to words of encouragement since they are only words, but give it everything you've got, everything you're willing to give. Ultimately, now more than ever, you need to live for what makes you happy, inspired, peaceful, hot blooded, and or for what you wish to dedicate yourself to. You know how short a time you might have but keep believing in how it could be much longer. Make the best of it, so you are happy and those you care about know you did your best right to the end, and of course keep fighting and prove the doctors wrong.

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