The hiatus is over!

Ok so an update on what has been going on these past few years with me and why the publishing stopped for such a long time.

I began writing on this site as a project to learn and improve my writing and to get feedback from anyone who would be interested in what I write.

Unfortunately, that was around the time when I was severely struggling on a financial and emotional level.

I felt pressured by myself to find a life partner but on the rare occasional I would end up finding a date it would end with complete failure which didn't help my already low self-esteem.

Another big problem was struggling with finding work.

Of course work was always available but of course given my state of not being a student anymore and, well not having any work experience at the time, nobody wanted to hire me and those who did would often do illegal practices that often involved exploiting its employees.

I tried excessively hard to find my place in life, one of my dreams was to move into my hometown, my family home, at the time empty so my family let me live there, I was truly happy... for a month or so.

Comes out that the unemployment rate over there was over 50%, much higher than the areas in which I was already struggling to find a job so as you can imagine, my life there did not last long.

I had to come back to the city.

Heartbroken I had to figure out what to do but... I had honestly no idea, throughout the last few years, I had gotten a degree in veterinary technician that proved basically a useless waste of time (veterinary technicians are basically the vet version of a nurse, essentially we have the same skills as a vet but we are not allowed to do vet practices without a supervision of a vet) because as it turns out, that for one position at a vet clinic on average about 8 or 10 different people apply, most of which have a vet degree that is favoured over a vet tech degree as vets are legally allowed to do more than vet techs.

So I figure that maybe I can get some experience in the form of an internship or even just free service in turn for experience?

nope, guess what, there are like 6 or 7 vet students offering the same... again favoured over vet techs as once they graduate, the clinic already knows the student and can then hire them and not have to waste time looking for potential employees.

Essentially I was at the bottom of the barrel.

This along with a constant stream of short term shitty jobs, little social life and definitely no love life really took a huge toll on me.

And then everything changed once this one girl showed up.

this girl was a very toxic person as I had quickly found out and wore anything left in me to the bone, that stuff was more toxic than the elephant's foot and thankfully after a month or two things ended.

Then shortly after that dodged bullet I met the one, and I mean the one
we not only hit it off but we had this deep connection that we share to this day, funnily enough we had known eachother for 8 years but never talked... until one day I decided to make an effort to be more social, to start reconnecting with people I haven't talked to in years... she was one of the people I picked to start talking to.

The funny thing is that I happened to get in touch with her during a really tough moment in her life and unknowingly helped her in a way nobody else could, likewise she really helped me get over a lot of the crap that has been piling up inside of me over the years, including the toxic girl, my low self-esteem (I still fight with that but its much better now, all thanks to her support) and even my social and job issues.

So I have been thinking about the possibility of going to another country to work, as much as I hated the idea it felt like a last resort and the last resort has been looming over me over the last few years.

Guess what? my significant other lives in another country!

guess what else?

she sent me a two job offers for similar jobs in her city.

reluctantly I decided to apply, doubtful that I would get a reply given my personal experience with applying to jobs.

Another reason why I was reluctant was because we established that I would live a year in my country to learn her country's language and then I would start looking for a job and then once I found a job and got it, I would come and live there.

Much to my surprise, I got a reply, not from one but from both offers and I was on my way to their job interviews, figured it would be a great opportunity to have them during my stay at my significant other's place for a few days (the country ,y significant other is from, is a 7 hour drive from my home so it wasn't a big deal to go there)

So I go there and have my first job interview.

I land the freaking job interview and they want me to go to the training first thing next week!

I of course accept it... I could have asked them to wait until I make up my mind given I had the second job interview lined up and compare but given the fact that I couldn't find a decent job in 5 years I wasn't going to look a gift horse in a mouth, besides I could quit anytime later so this was the better option.

I still my second job interview and I figured I might as well go for it despite having already taken up the other one.

I land the second interview too!
This time I politely decline, I wanted to keep my options open and not discourage them in case things don't work out in my current job so I just told them that I am working part time etc but if I decide to get another part-time job I will come to them etc...

I finally had a job! and it was a decent paying one that didn't treat me like garbage!
I was ecstatic and I still am very happy with this job.

Sure the job isn't perfect, there are some minor issues but all things considered it is a good job.

So the next step was moving in.

For a while we were at her parent's place but we soon got our own flat and shared it with her sister (The flat is co-owned by my significant other and her sister so it spares us paying the ridiculously high rent)

As we were going to move in we used the opportunity to renovate the place (lots of chaos, frustration etc but it is now finally done)

then last but not least I needed to settle down at my job, which I did and get a social life and friends, again something I managed to do.

As luck would have it, I work in IT and if nobody calls with an issue, as long as everything is done and up to date then the company lets us do what we want (watch youtube or streams but not on fullscreen, go on reddit, facebook, you name it) of course within reason, after all professionalism comes first and that is what I focus on everyday.

I work hard so that I earn my spare time which I was trying to figure out how to spend.

And then it came to me

I can spend it on my writing!

and here we are.

So this is basically what has happened in my life during those few years... it was hectic, it was crazy but its finally over and I have moved onto new challenges in life and I am in a much better place than I have been in a long time.