Update on my status

Hey, guys.
For those of you who follow "From the Ashes," my big project on this site, I bet you're probably annoyed that there hasn't been an update in a while. I understand, and I apologize for not getting it done. I have the story planned, I just have to finish typing it. That being said, I should probably explain what's going on. A part of it is college, since this is my third semester of Vet Tech school, and it's pretty intense, but that's not everything.
The thing is, my depression seems to have latched onto my love for MLP, and this site, in particular.
As much as none of us want to admit it, Friendship is Magic won't run forever. I don't know how well season 7 did (though if they're making an entire EQG series on Youtube, I assume it's doing okay), but the show's lasted longer than I would've expected. What kills me about the end of it is the end of the fandom. Once the fandom's gone, this site probably won't stick around. This fandom is one of the most creative, most talented, most inventive ones I've ever seen, and I love being part of it. The thought of this website, with all the fantastic stories people have created over the last few years, disappearing forever...it's heartbreaking. Add this onto the existential crisis I was already trying to deal with and my suicidal thoughts kicking in. It's not a good place to be. It feels pathetic, getting suicidal over a cartoon show, but I can't help myself.
I'm not suicidal now. I'm in therapy, and it's helping at least a little. I'm trying to get to a better place with my meds, and hopefully my psychiatrist and I can come up with something.
I'm not looking for sympathy or anything, and I promise I'm okay. Just please be patient while I try to stay stable.