Yet Another Life Update · 7:07am Sep 14th, 2017

So, I'm alive. I know it's been a while, but a lot of stuff has happened in the past four months, so I haven't had time to do a lot of things as of late. I'll admit this, though, this blog is gonna get a little personal, so if this isn't your thing, feel free to leave and not read this. Not like I have too many followers anyway, heh. But it's whatever.

Well, to start things off, I think it'd be best to say that my projected plans for the summer did not turn out how I wanted them to. I actually decided to go home for the summer, so I didn't do too much. The summer started off okay, but things went downhill pretty quickly. After about two weeks being home, I learned that my father was in the hospital emergency room. Now, for reference, my father wasn't a good person, nor in my life, but I felt strangely numb after hearing the news. I did learn, though, that twelve hours after he was admitted, he passed away.

I know I said that I was not close to him, but it was an odd month afterwards. I've been lucky and haven't lost too many people that I know. But it's an odd feeling after you lose a parent, especially one you hadn't talked to in about a year. I remember sometimes looking at my mother and just thinking, "This is all I have left." I know, it's depressing, but my summer wasn't exactly a good one.

Speaking of my mother, though, she didn't know how I felt about a lot of things. I've always assumed that I had a form of depression--heck, my father suffered from it--but it was never diagnosed, nor did I ever tell my mother about it. However, with this summer, that didn't last long. I told her about this stuff, and I got diagnosed with legit depression. So, to be frank, my summer wasn't a good one. I spent most of it being, well, in a rather piece-of-shit place.

I know that my goal for the summer was to actually write something, but I didn't. I'll admit that I tried, but the creative juices weren't flowing for me. A lot has changed for me over the summer. Now, though, I'm back at college in a better environment than home is (let's got get into those details pls) and life is okay. I like it here. I have close friends and fun times. Heck, I even kissed my first guy a couple weekends ago ;)

So yeah. Am I ever gonna write something else on here? I don't know. Maybe. I like this site. I really do. But I'm not sure if pones is something I want to put behind me. I still love the fandom. I still love this site. But all the stuff I have inspiration to write isn't pone related. I have original ideas I want to pitch. Things I want to do. I'll probably still post a blog every now and then, but other than that? I probably won't be on here too much.

Thank you all for reading this. This summer was rough, but life is sorta okay now. I think. I may write some pone some day, but it's not something I have plans for.

Peace out, everyone.
Stahl

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