990 Blogs (Sorrowful Regretful, plus Sky rants about love) · 5:29am Sep 3rd, 2017
I miss someone. I regret giving her up. News flash: this isn't news. There's always someone I love, someone I'd give anything to be with... but in this case I'm not telling you who it is. You know who you are, and I promise I'll be more loyal to you than... before. Cross my heart and hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye. It's OK if you don't believe me, I've been a total jerk to you in the past. No... jerk is an understatement. I was a complete and utter bastard. But hear me out. I told you I'd never forgive myself, and I didn't. I regretted what I did and felt the crushing guilt ever since I did it. I've paid my debt to the devil, and I'm still trying to pay my debt to God... a debt that will take a whole lifetime of goodness and charity to pay off. But this isn't about payment or service. It's about love and trust. I broke your trust. I broke your heart... and if you could find it in your broken heart to forgive me, I promise that I'll try my best to fix it. I've been searching my whole life for love, and I found it from all the wrong people... except you. You were the one, and it was enough, but I just took it all away, and I understand if you don't forgive me, but you have to forgive yourself. I know you said you were wrong to trust me, and I agree... but that was the old me. I'm trying my best to make amends, but I can't do that alone.
I realize that I've been rambling, so I'm gonna wrap it up now with one question. Four words, and it's NOT a proposal.
Do you love me?
Well this is a sad song