I...

I want to help those I care about yet time and time again...it feels like I can't do anything. Words can only do so much and I'm always afraid that I'll just fuck everything up. All the god damn time whenever a friend is in need I try my best to calm them down but I always fear that it's just me spouting nonsense and they'll just go back to being upset or...hurting themselves...god damn it all.
I always tell everyone I'm fine, I always tell myself I'm fine, I always feel fine but no matter what I say or do...I feel useless...
So I'll just...leave this here...people will come and ask 'do you want to talk about it' but I'll just tell them I don't want to talk because I'm an asshole like that...

Comments

[Feather Book]

Helping others is hard at times. But don't be afraid of letting others help you. I'll always help you, Xin

[Xinrick]

4537398 thanks Feather...but I feel terrible whenever I can't help someone...especially when someone's probably hurting themselves right now...

[Pastel Candy Candies]

Onii-chan it'll be okay

[Xinrick]

4537407 I always tells myself 'as long as my friends and family are happy then I don't care what I'm feeling'...but even when I would sooner give up my happiness just so see someone else happy...it never works damn it all...

[Pastel Candy Candies]

4537418 But it does work, you make others happy when their sad. It's just sometimes, people need to be sad so they can be better again.

[Xinrick]

4537422 I...suppose your right. I'm always here for people but they always stay away from me most of the time...I know it's the 'need to be by myself' kind of thing but still...

[Pastel Candy Candies]

4537425 Try not to worry about it too much Onii-chan, being alone can help others sort out their issues better than they can with others help, I'm sure it's all fine anyway

[Xinrick]

4537426 hopefully...

[The Last Stanza]

*virtual hug*

[Xinrick]

4537637 *hugs back*