Well, just fuck me.

I don't usually bitch. Only when it's funny.

I see so many people whining and unloading on the internet that it's like staring into a sea of pity draining into the canals of deaf ears.

But I'm so tired. I hurt in places I shouldn't. I'm angry all the time. Everything sets me off. Even when I'm happy I'm seething. I can't focus on anything. I know I have a habit of making promises to you guys, and setting deadlines for myself, and either forgetting, ignoring, or running from them.

And it all feels so stupid. Petty. Like I don't have any reason to bitch because everyone else all has their own problems and they're SO. FUCKING. LOUD ABOUT IT.

I'm seeing a doctor next week. Been out of meds for two weeks and need to do a third before I can even ASK for more.

Gonna try, no promises, to write something before the end of the week. Don't know what. Maybe let me know what you guys want to read.

Comments

[BradtheBrony]

Hey, no need to rush. Just take a break from here, go see the doc, and get better.

[BleedingRaindrops]

Don't worry about it. Take care of yourself. We all support you.

If you're looking for an idea. Here's one I never really got off the ground. See if you can do something with it.

Flying Blind
This one turned up in a thread on Tumblr, where someone had whited out Sweetie Belle’s eyes. Sweetie Belle has started reading magic books from Twilight’s library, and decides to try some spellcrafting of her own. Attempting a “see in the dark” spell, she accidentally turns her entire world dark, permanently, and must now rely on her magic to “see”. (She can’t physically see anything, but she can sense where things are.)

Sweetie Belle has been boasting her magical talents, and Scootaloo becomes jealous. She heads off into the everfree, looking for a decent cliff to jump from, in the hopes that her wings will catch some wind. Rainbow Dash hears about Scootaloo’s disappearance and heads off to search for her, and eventually finds her trapped in a dark cavern—too dark to see anything. Sweetie Belle has to guide Rainbow Dash through the cavern to rescue Scootaloo.

This never took off because the plot is too loosely arranged, and seems to pull Scootaloo and Rainbow Dash out of left field. On top of that, I never figured out how to end it.

[Mac349]

I wish better and good health these coming days. Do what you need to feel better.