Letter #1 · 9:24pm Jul 1st, 2016
I've never done blogs before, so pardon me if this is awkward in any way. TMI alert: I've suffered from depression and being bipolar from a very young age. It was caused by my family changing so often I never had a solid foundation to stand on. I've been moved from one spot to another so often I never finished a grade in a single school until 8th grade. I never really even socialized with people for longer than a few months until I was in my teens. Because of all of this, I have many, many demons and skeletons in my closet that are clawing to get out, and if I don't let them out, they are going to kill me.
What I'm going to do is start my own little blog series to cope, each blog being a letter to Celestia about my day, week, dreams, and anything else I find relevant. I won't edit these as I will be striking the words down while my emotions are hot. Ridiculous? Yes. Childish? Definitely. Necessary? Most definitely. Said letter is after the break.
Dear Princess Celestia,
Today I've managed to really screw up. I touched a subject that most people have a very hard time with: Death. I managed to not only disrespect the dead, but offend nearly every person who read the thread that I posted. The general Idea of it is that it took them five months to realize the mans passing. I found this intolerable since they called him a friend, and called them pathetic, while also claiming to know how he would feel about this development. Needless to say, that was not the right thing to do.
I tried to apologize for doing this, but it only aggravated them further. In truth, I can't apologize for what I did. I also can't make up for it either. So I ran away. I left the group like a coward, and I more than likely won't join back for a rather long time. I know this isn't the right action to take, but I can't bring myself to face them.
Perhaps it wouldn't be so bad if just a few days ago, I managed to alienate my sister as well. I said some awfully hurtful Truths she never acknowledges, and she said she hates me and is no longer my sister. I replied the same. She left the house and I got all my things together since I was staying for a week to babysit. After I had packed up, I simple left. This to wouldn't be so bad, if it wasn't for the fact that her three children weren't on the bed next to me. They were alone for about twenty minutes close to midnight. I told them they'd be better off without my sister. More on that later, maybe.
To put the final nail in the coffin, she came over to my house and started to try and reconcile, but in a irritated voice, So I closed the door on her. Never has a more vile string of curses been said to me.
-Your faithful subject,
Majora
Eh. I dont see the big deal, have edges they'll jump off ledges. Their choice to be pissed so let them be pissed. Or if they are disapointed, let them and say "thank you for fufilling my dream pleasing you, now go bother other edgy people"
4060906 HA, THE DISLIKE COUNTER
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Anyway, to those people that read that, it was only but the way I deal with things, calmly, though i am addressing a blank audience i would bet someone will see this, and know that my comment was only buta way to deal with people hating you for your mistakes,