feeling eaten up by anxiety

why is it so hard to get the words out for writing elements of friendship
I got quite a bit down last week, but suddenly today seems really PFFFT.
my burns healed just fine, but i'm just losing my drive
Maybe I do need to take a break, so that my drive can come back.
but i still feel compelled to write, as loathsome a prospect as it is
Updates have been slow enough as it is, but I don't want to throw something out there just because. You guys deserve better.
it's my duty to you people
I write because I want to, not simply out of obligation.
AF