Mar
2nd
2016
Never meant to be I guess · 12:44am Mar 2nd, 2016
I hate life right now. I might want to start cutting again or even worse kill myself! If I had a time machine to turn back time I would redo all my mistakes. </3
I can't even think of what he's doing right now. I feel so bad. 
why can't I like guys from where I live!?!
Ugh fuck life's sucks ass right now! * gets blade from back pocket and cuts deep into my wrists and legs while crying*
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phoenixrainbow94 · 272 views
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don't.......*hug*
Who decided that you can't?
Whoa there. No need for such actions. Please, understand there are people who care for you.
Don't, please. Having thoughts like that will only make yourself worse. *hugs*
*hugs* Talk to me. I'm all ears.
(Grabs blade and tosses it away, then hugs you for as long as you need)
Shh... shh... talk to me...
Please don't...*grabs emergency med kit for your cuts* You don't need to do any of this, please don't feel upset...or like this.
Slow down there.
Firstly, mistakes help us learn. If we all lived in a perfectly mistake free world, life would be stupid and boring. We need mistakes in order to move forward with our lives.
And secondly, break ups (I am guessing this is about break ups) happen all. the. time! We get our hearts shattered, but then we try again. Sure it may hurt, but giving up and wallowing in misery is not going to help you. You're just going to end up hurting yourself and the people you care about!
So put the knife down. If you really feel like..the 's' word, then go to a therapist or talk to a trusted adult about this.
I'm sorry, if this seems a little mean, but I'm just tired of seeing people think that break ups mean the end of the world. My sister went through it, and it pained me to see her depressed. I don't want you to go down that road. So just stop it!
3786757 why?
3786758 can't what? *looks up at u*
3786771 his whole family hates me but his mother but..... She's gone....
3786773 I had them since one of my friends died. She was just 19 years old!! Why did they have to take her and not me!! *cries on your shoulder*
3786774 t-thanks
3786779 what's the use? He's better without me anyways! I'm just useless!! I'm a mess-up!!
3786796 p-please I-I-I'm c-c-cold...
3786845 I don't need a fucking therapist!
3786891 I....I.....care about you.
3786891
Did your friend commit suicide?
3786891
You're not useless. You know who you are? You're a friend. A confidant. A surrogate sister. You are not useless.
(Hugs tightly)
I know how that feels...
3786891
If you need to talk or vent or anything, PM always open. Just don't hurt yourself.
3786891 *gives you a warm hug* It's alright, all of your friends will keep you warm and happy. I'm sorry about what your going through and I wish I could help but at least I can make you feel better online right?
3786891
I take those words very seriously. I'm sorry if I offended you in any way.
3786891 We don't hate you.
3786891 Who is the person that causes you so much distress?
I SWEAR IF YOU CUT YOURSELF, I'M GONNA I'M GONNA, I'm gonna cry! Please don't do it!
3786900 no she was killed by a drunk driver *looks down with a tear coming down from my eye*
3786897 thanks *looks up and smile*
3786901 it's feels like I am tho
3786904 thanks
3786907 *i smile at everyone* thank you guys
People care for you, don't throw that away.
3786925 Your welcome Aqua, it's the best I...or we can do
3786911 I'm sorry
3786912 awe
3786920 I can't really say
3786923 why I'm useless in this world
*hugs* There is no need for such an act, you want love just like everyone else does. But in many cases you have to let it come to you rather than seeking it out. You hold a light with in you that must not be diminished because of these feelings that torment you right now.
Let that light shine so that all can see how wonderful you truly are. As Mandy Hale once said in her book 'The Single Woman', “Don't ignore the love you DO have in your life by focusing on the love you DON'T.” So please stay and allow your friends to comfort you.
3786932 You don't need to apologize. I should've been more clear as to why I said those things
3786932 Huh, okay. And your not useless.
3786945 .....
3786925
If just one person believes in you,
Deep enough, and strong enough, believes in you...
Hard enough, and long enough,
It stands to reason, that someone else will think
"If he can do it, I can do it."
Making it: two whole people, who believe in you
Deep enough, and strong enough,
Believe in you.
Hard enough and long enough
There's bound to be some other person who
Believes in making it a threesome,
Making it three.....
People you can say: believe in me.....
And if three whole people,
Why not -- four?
And if four whole people,
Why not--more, and
more, and
more....
And when all those people,
Believe in you,
Deep enough, and strong enough,
Believe in you...
Hard enough, and long enough
It stands to reason that you yourself will
Start to see what everybody sees in
You...
And maybe even you,
Can believe in you... too!
3786925 and seeing you like this make me feel bad....*hug*
3786935 You are not the useless in this world. I'm a cow! You're better then me. So, don't hate on yourself. WE LOVE YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU!!!!
3786925
I'm so sorry. But you have to know that your friend wouldn't want you to kill yourself. I can guarantee that up in heaven she is saying "Please don't hurt/kill yourself. I want you to live out your life to the fullest and don't worry about me, I'm in a better place." And you have a full life ahead of you, so please think of the people you would be hurting if you did hurt/kill yourself. Please *lifts your head up to look at me and wipes tear from your eye and gives you a comforting hug and a kiss on your forehead.*
3786925
You okay now?
3788614 no he blocked me from faceboom
3788891
Who? That guy you were talking about in one of your previous blogs?
3788895 Subject 19
3788903
Oh. You know what, fuck em. Sorry for my language but if he is causing you pain emotionally, then you should no longer have anything to do with him. Like I told one of my friends the other day who were dealing with the same problem, "Sometimes you have to take the people who you thought you were friends with, until they stabbed you in the back, and you need to forget about them and push them out of your life."
3788906 .....
3788916
What? Did I say something wrong? Thanks as well for the follow.
3788922 I still love him, but I can't handle long distance relationships!!
3788931
Oh. Sorry, I misunderstood you. God I feel stupid right now.
3788938 it's okay I had a mistake breaking up with him. Now I can't get him back
3788943
Well I think that he needs some time to think things over.
3788952 he won't talk to me can u talk to him please. It's Subject 19
3788955
Will do.