Looking back and finding old memorys · 7:27am Feb 17th, 2016
Looking back if read old comments old PMs you name it..... Up to my first friend on fim who I lost a long time ago two actually.
Looking back on this if been crying tears of joy and sadness if had friends leave me and now I admit it its no one else's fault but my own I made my chose and it happened to be the one that lead me directly to more pain.
Im trying I really am, to just becume better, to become happy again, to be who I am in my mind and who I want to show.
Know one knows this about me but really I'm just bubbly and sweet, but with the past one present I have become bitter. There's only so much the humans emotions can handle my pain index serpaced two gears ago....but now my happy ness goes up little by little everyday. I know the day I find him the day we meet, I will be free from my chains that pull me down only two chains support me now but those chains are being tuged on and pulled on as hard as they can be to set me free from my demons and I'm geatful for it.
My personality is fun and kind and many other things, many teachers have called me a rare person to find in my generation. They say its because I'm more divers than anyone they have meet. I'm kind carrying loyal I'm not trust worth to many people, I find beauty in the darkest things I welcome everyone in my life no mater who they are, in manyways I'm divergent.
So Im willing to exsept it now and live up to it and I'm going to exsept help, so in the comments below those who wish to can help if they want if you wish to PM me that's fine to.
I might no respond right away seance its 1:30 a.m.
and I have school tomorrow but I love you all and thank you so much for being there for me you have no idea how much all of you have helped me.
*places hand on your shoulder* Life is nothing more than a learning experience, if you want to talk about anything I'm here to talk. I'll even help you find what answers you might be looking for. And till you answer this I'll just say this, rest well and enjoy the day to the fullest.
3760188 *hugs you* thank you I'm sorry if ignored you
3760296 *hugs and pats on back* It's alright, things happen.
3760407 yeah things do hapen I just wish somthings didnt
3761044 *slightly tightens hug* It's alright, things happen both good and bad so that we can learn and grow. I know the bad comes with pain but you can't let it hold you back. You are much stronger than you think.
3761256 *smiles* thank you
3761384 *pats back* You're welcome.